Saturday, January 31, 2009

kekaseh baru

feel like woah i found some'one' which is suppose to be called some'thing'... again as last few days, i waste my money again... ngaaa.... but this is own pelasure woo... seronok gila bila aku ada 'kekaseh baru'... i found beliau then i pay him then i bring him home... then he's already at my home.. now he's in my room.. and always give a good closure beside me... dan aku mungkin akan jadi gila seminit... hahaha... i feel like macam refuse to vent it out.. tapi ini perlu coz i have to keep it as my very chumel memory in my bajusemalam... i will always figure 'him' out in my mind for future life... there's no repeating or even replacing for the date of today... 31 January 2009 tiada pengganti... hahaha.. apa lah aku merapek.. sorry for those who are rajin baca ini entry, if u started being euuuwww-menyampahnye-ain-ni-membebel-haram-jadah-tah.......... hahaha.. aku peduli apa... but again sorry if these crap really evoke your liking to read... or maybe kill your excitement while read.. errhh, is there anyone feel to excite?? (perasan je aku)... hmmm.. whatever...

now i've been in serious... actually that 'kekaseh baru' is my very new kapok... i just bought it today... this ain't crazy.. but this is bliss... maybe some say i ought to stop this stupid bliss since i had seems ignorant kid bout my penny using... ngaaaa.... ok... ok... aku tak kisah semua tu... here the picture of kekaseh baru... i just snapped it.. bagus tak muka aku dalam semua gambar... saling tak tumpah baru dapat makan gula-gula getah.. my mom gave a cynic statement by said, "nanti makan gitar je, jangan makan nasik"... hahaha... yeah she's a very cool emak... that's a big reason for me to keep loving her instead of dia memang ibu aku... ngeeee......

tampar lah aku sedikit agar aku habiskan keseronokan ini dengan lebih segera.....
..........terima kasih...........

Friday, January 30, 2009

impulse

i noticed that the current name of me is 'ain pemalas'.... there's nobody been so-cruel to call me like this hell foul name... but i just slightly found myself is still within that malas... yesterday i didn't put my busy day with internet at all... tahniah untuk aku... so i having the day by blowing my money... oh ini tidak tahniah... too many times i asked abangah am i do a right thing enough??? then he glanced the chair, then gave a short sit and we were waiting for that 'thing'....(apa pulak thing tu?).... actually i spent my money in a big sum for buying 'thing' itu.... kemudian dia berkata, "betul lah ni, nape tak betul lak?".... then i wrinkled.... at that time, seriously i look dumb... nasib baik takde orang amik gambar muka saya pada saat itu... huhuhu... the doubt wasn't gave an easy ending as i think of... sebab i was spending again in a such amount for another 'thing'... yeah.. i admit that i am a crazy shopper.... ok, actually i ain't sort of cool person.. i never been so calmness.. everything i do must come along with doubt and worry... sebab tu aku begitu cemerkap.. hmmm... let it be... it was my yesterday-buying-behaviour... hmmm... ok... i've already plan to cut my hair.. but it never been done at all... seeing me with this messy look, i often been teased by my lecturer when he keep complaining my hair is completely seems like 'orang baru bangun tidur'... kejam gila cikgu aku... he often asking me to tight my hair properly and try to be so tide.. hahaha.... apa buruk sangat ke aku begini wahai cikgu??? tak kisah lah... but i plan to cut 'em after my final.. it might happen on March... mcm gila kompem je... uishhh.... when i call myself as si pemalas... this is only can be shown in my eyes... coz i'm the only one knows how far i've put untiring habit on myself... by substituting on time work with a great delay work... i feel like kurang enak dengan perbuatan aku sendiri... ini ain ke cahaya mata??? bla...bla..... baek... nak berendam....
............mak saya memang ensem............

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

gergaji dan pisau

previous entry has been posted in an hours back.. seperti aku sangat gila akan blog... satu hari sampai dua tiga post... here the situation is just a same... whilst i'm in a terrific life line, then i feel like want-to-say-and-type-everything-so-that-i-will-feel-okay... now the feeling is kucar kacir.. aku agak mahu demam.. yeah.. it's felt since yesterday... tahu apa itu tak sedap badan... dan bila badan juga is overweight... now i'm in trying lifting weight... i never jog since i bought my jogging shoes.. poor me.. in this morning, abgngah reminded me bout that shoes.. he knew that i never put 'em on to my feet even once... bagus aku dalam soal pembaziran... hmmm... so as arrived at home just now, when i gave some strums to guitar, i felt like macam-dah-lama-aku-tak-petik-kau-wahai-gitar.... quite a days when i got no passion in strumming at all... that's a point when abngah advised me to get my own ones... then i realize that we'll get a good spirit in everything if it is belong to us... so i guess that i'm going to own everything like others do... in purpose to have that such a good passion... macam tak masuk akal... tapi aku rasa semua tu betul... it happened to me when i bought a textbook for a certain subject in my study, then i can feel that excitement to study dengan baeknya... which rather than i just borrow the book from library... but how come bout the jogging shoes??? still zero improvement... senang citer aku memang pemalas untuk exercise.... argghh... mungkin aku sangat selalu membuat andaian sendiri.. but at least aku berasa kosong bila dah merapu banyak-banyak dalam ni....
...............mekaseh..............

tak tahu

feeling rare to put a bad words here... just coz of i'm scared of getting terlalu-menulis-blog-tanpa-berasa-untuk-belajar... yeah... seems i able to handle the flow of my conscious feeling... for time being, weirdly, when i feel older than my supposedly age to be, then i feel retarted... none of worth thing for being that spastic... but age fear is a matter... i keep counting every single useless of myself so that the word better will be part of that count list... i imagine myself to be far bagus... macam lah sangat.... last day when mom said that abah allowed me to put that braces, i feel reluctant... a thrill statement from her... yeah.. the Compaq matter... and all sort of a brand new for me... those are the reason when they said, kau memang anak abah lah adik... or even syam keep teasing me with that abah's daughter... i just roughly think that the tease matter is letting me to be treated like this.. i deserve to have them... saper suh korang perkotak katikkan perasaan aku... hahaha... but i still learn everything in a years... kebagusan aku in study... but i miss to read my book collections... a big number to make them completely read... lately, i got a big deal in pimples... sometimes that's gonna be so-called boredom.. i never feel cool in curing them.. aku dah sangat buhsan... juga sick... jadi aku berserah... but i can't be able to shut them up... semua nak kata mengapa dengan muka aku... berhentilah... aku juga berperasaan... i got no climax in this entry.. but i'm feeling good in bahasabijak... maybe this bajusemalam almost reaches 2years... so i feel woah malasnya aku... baek-baek.. aku berubah esok hari.....
...............selamat makan...............

Thursday, January 22, 2009

mak aku ensem

i felt mute yesterday... sometimes when i got a gross mood, then i zip my mouth rather than give some speak... yeah... so gross.. which is same as when i'm feeling excited to write even one word here... that was case on yesterday... wah... so-called 'cases' huh... none was related to court matter anyway... dah memang aku suka bersikap ikut-suka-hati-nak-cakap-apa... hmmm... yesterday i left my handphone at home when i went to my very pad classes... saying that either i meant to leave it or it was accidently left??? biarlah aku sendiri yang jawab... i didn't mean to leave it... serious and i was really sure... here i got a piece of point on that handset forgot... actually i never treat my day wisely... i love to rush in everything... as same as the last minute doing... mengapa?? dan kenapa??? sebab aku penangguh dalam membuat kerja yang sangat berjaya... i realize one thing when my mom squeezed me for not switching on the computer anymore... at that time, i complained, "why u envy with me mak?"...(cakap dalam hati je sebenarnya)... hahaha.... now i know that i should substitute the word envy with 'love'... baru aku sedar, mak marah sebab dia sayang aku... she never envy with the internet or even computer matter.. she's still own a cool life without a computer... i know that i never have a much time for myself when i started pressing a keyborad button... jadi, aku sekarang dah banyak berubah... betul apa... hahaha.. last weekend i got a family vacation and went to cameron highland.. there was so sejuk... the weather was freezing and insisting me to buy a red glove for mine... the place is actually good for holiday mood... and not sort of place for shopping mood... because i blowed my money only less than fifty bucks... sangat bagus.. buleh berjimat... only my aunties and sis crazed in sayur-sayuran.... whatever lah.. but it was relaxing me once since i struggled for the exam few weeks back... bagus... bagus... semua benda bagus-bagus belaka lately... jadi aku berasa sangat bagus....
................horny............

Saturday, January 10, 2009

chantekbelaka

what the hell important to have a word heaven in your pocket... i assumed myself to own a big pocket for having a big numerical of heaven.... everyone feel please to have that so... last week my heaven was about the end of peperiksaan.... i throughout that week in depression... wondered if can't hide some humiliation for that.. so i messaged my mentor.. then she answered me by giving a great strength and a little joke about our motto... [do not married before finishing your study]... she was giggling me once... thanks anyway for concerning me at least... as if she can read my post here... aku suka membebel agar tidak dikesan musuh... by hoping no one can keep teasing me... ini juga sedikit heaven in my very own pocket... ok...

last day i trashed my picture collections... i will replacing 'em by chantekbelaka... boringness... so here some new collection for that.. ain't some.. but apperently i feel wanted to put only one picture for that.. like anyone care huh... hmmmm....... but at least the trash thingy is a part of that pocket heaven either...

for time being, i feel starving... not starve for my sister's dishes.. but i have to starve for putting braces on my teeth... i consume my money in a very less figure so that my penny is going to increase... here is another heaven in my pocket... but this heaven get to stuck from being used... please lah abah, beri lah sedikit sumbangan untuk braces... he refused to help me some regarding to braces... he slightly said, "u are already pretty adik with this look, ada sebab tuhan jadikkan adik gigi sebegini"... then he continued with some bla...bla.... the religous issues... kind that stuff lah... hmmm... so i promised myself to invest for it used my own saving money... maybe i got the title 'the very stubborn daughter'.... ok i rest my case... tapi aku tidak mampu untuk mengaku kalah... i am hard headed to say i am in a list of loser.. sebab aku anak bongsu yang sangat mahu menang.. mintak maaf abah dan emak....smileeee......

i was missing to keep blogging here while i gave a study commitment on last few days.. maybe that's my reason to unleash many words for my pocket heaven.. some person might conclude me as a freak human being.. i often using irrelevant words for any my life matters... they may be say there's no pocket heaven in their entire life... itu adalah hidup kamu... biar lah aku mengumpamakan apa-apa sahaja untuk hidup aku pula... if no complaining ended for all these, i might bend your spoon unless you just give a very nice shut up... sebab aku sangat nice dengan orang-orang... tapi jangan lah buat tak nice dengan aku... nanti aku akan bertukar jadi harimau bintang...
..................percayalah......................