apa itu persepsi?

aku mula memikirkan soal persepsi... kelmarin baru sahaja bercakap dengan si emping jagung mengenai persepsi.. manusia mudah membuat satu kesimpulan dengan hanya berdasarkan persepsi yang negatif... ada dua sahaja persepsi... samada ia positif atau negatif... manusia memilih negatif kerana ia jalan singkat untuk menghasilkan satu kesimpulan.. maka, lebih mudah dan tidak buang masa... kalau memilih persepsi positif, kau memerlukan masa yang lama untuk kau simpulkan pandangan kau terhadap sesuatu perkara atau manusia lain... nampak bagai mudah, tapi sebenarnya susah...

tahu tak, kita dilahirkan dengan penuh ketidaksempurnaan... kita akan pilih jalan mudah di dalam hidup kerana kita bagai yakin kita sudah mencapai apa itu kesempurnaan... cuba merendahkan diri dalam setiap pandangan kau terhadap manusia lain kerana ia adalah satu kelengkapan untuk kau menjadi lebih sempurna.... aku hanya risau, sampai bila sesetengah manusia akan masih amalkan sifat memberi persepsi negatif pada manusia lain sedangkan mereka tidak tahu apa jalan kehidupan mereka sendiri pada masa akan datang?? cubalah untuk berfikir kerana ia mampu memberi efek yang kuat berbanding kau cuba untuk membuat kesimpulan yang tidak baik sahaja pada manusia di sekitar kau... cuba kadangkala tidak mengapa!

...............mudah...............


Siapa: Mungkin mereka.
Bila: Kejap, beri masa untuk saya berfikir.
Mengapa: Tidak pasti.

tiga perkara!

whether it's true or else, i have my own predictive answers for every single thing that i really wish to say to people... i know and really can sense what the answers will be given to me without saying even one word from my mouth.. ok, that's a reason why i refuse to talk... i know i will always be in wrong conditions.. tahu tak dengan hanya menulis, manusia tidak dapat membangkang kau secara terus... mereka akan membaca setiap penulisan... maka, mahu atau tidak, sebenarnya mereka sedang cuba memahami kata-kata kau... nampak tak bahawa kau masih boleh menjimatkan kos air liur untuk bercakap... konsep bercakap dan menulis...

the peeps: sejak minggu lepas aku tidak tahu mengapa banyak berfikir soal pemenang... aku mengkaji mengapa aku selalu menjadi pemenang nombor dua dan bukan nombor satu... tahu tak manusia suka rasa susah untuk kawal rasa ingin menang kerana takut tertinggal di belakang.. bagus, abah taught me how to be a winner... don't let yourself left far behind... bermotivasi dengan fikiran sendiri... tepuk tangan!! oh ok... i am not a loser.. i am just a winner though the inside is weeping... by letting them keep pointing the fault to you, still the win is in your very top list.. indeed!!

hedge your bets: dad asked the 'certain persons'... hmm.. knowing that you have no chances to speak... also believing that you are just been trapped... so, yes you have nothing to defend... might can't be defended... i know how those 'certain' were hedging their bets... in less talk, a very thank you for burying me alive just like this... a lot!!

fact and fate: "don't try to hide the fact while running from life fate"...
i know how easy to you to hold this fucking phrase to release the facts... kadangkala manusia terlalu menjaga banyak perkara sehingga mereka tidak kisah pada penjagaan lagi pada sesetengah masa... tahu atau tidak, gigi saya masih terjaga dengan hebat... hmmm... all are beyond my hands.. i'll pray for your very desire bliss... with no worries, the forgiveness is willingly given to you... that's it!!


..............penghargaan...........

Has: the cruelty
Have: the tears
Had: it's ok

tinggal

i have lack of consistency in everything... that's a weakness.. but my strength is "i am not a problem developer among my kesayangan"... thing that you could be seen in proper talk may help you avoid with the title of 'problem developer among kesayangan'... hmmm... quite a long time that i never make some updates here... because the weakness was there... i mean, 'lack of consistency to keep updating the bajusemalam'... naahhh.. actually that wasn't my really point in my few seconds ago anyway... some say to me, "you own too much of pleasure"... then i added a cruel words in that statement, "but myself only own a stupid envy with those pleasure you had".... actually the added words i created is only for my relief since i can't stand anymore in certain part of things.. bad revenge from my very surroundings... what the hell yuck...

i am a winner but i am not at the first place of winner... i just made this conclusion since i did own research bout my all achievements... i could be a winner.. but i only could be at the second place of those wins... when i was kid, i love to join a drawing competition.. but i always be a second winner.. the first place to me was so rarely... yeah, rarely.. means, i could only reach that first when i'm the only one being so competent with what i tend to achieve... hmmm... why you love to be a first place winner?? because you are creating a new hope to life... by putting a high expectation on yourself, it won't bring you a word of succeed if you lay the stupid wasting onto it... so, i just want to be a winner without worrying which place that i will get.. i am ordinary and i am not the best but i am still a winner.. that's it..

in few months back, i often said "put me out of misery".... and now, yes life is so miserable... indeed...