tak tahu

feeling rare to put a bad words here... just coz of i'm scared of getting terlalu-menulis-blog-tanpa-berasa-untuk-belajar... yeah... seems i able to handle the flow of my conscious feeling... for time being, weirdly, when i feel older than my supposedly age to be, then i feel retarted... none of worth thing for being that spastic... but age fear is a matter... i keep counting every single useless of myself so that the word better will be part of that count list... i imagine myself to be far bagus... macam lah sangat.... last day when mom said that abah allowed me to put that braces, i feel reluctant... a thrill statement from her... yeah.. the Compaq matter... and all sort of a brand new for me... those are the reason when they said, kau memang anak abah lah adik... or even syam keep teasing me with that abah's daughter... i just roughly think that the tease matter is letting me to be treated like this.. i deserve to have them... saper suh korang perkotak katikkan perasaan aku... hahaha... but i still learn everything in a years... kebagusan aku in study... but i miss to read my book collections... a big number to make them completely read... lately, i got a big deal in pimples... sometimes that's gonna be so-called boredom.. i never feel cool in curing them.. aku dah sangat buhsan... juga sick... jadi aku berserah... but i can't be able to shut them up... semua nak kata mengapa dengan muka aku... berhentilah... aku juga berperasaan... i got no climax in this entry.. but i'm feeling good in bahasabijak... maybe this bajusemalam almost reaches 2years... so i feel woah malasnya aku... baek-baek.. aku berubah esok hari.....

...............selamat makan...............