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i'm currently alone at home... usual thing, parent already back to penang... abngah already in sarawak... thus an unsual thing is now Iva already in phuket... i know how she would forget about maksu here by holidaying and enjoying that vacation... in a very pity word, "aku sgt kesian dok umah sorang2 smpai hari khamis"... i just phoned mom, she started worrying about me... then abglang shall back to shah alam rather than just let me be seen alone here... i don't really hope his accompanying since i know i am fully okay... hmmm...

i just back from classes.. i think i should choose a proper talk in this entry... i got no idea for this choice, but sometimes person will choose anything by refer to very current condition that he or she faces to... my midsem will coming around.. to be exact, it will be on next week on 4th of May... just now as i was in class, cikgu taught us how we supposed not to choose to blame on others as if we keep failing in everything we do... eventually, i really minded her words... so sink or swim, the exam must be done in next week... bertabahlah hendaknya... hmmm...

i was giggling in the class... fareez mmg geng mengutuk... u know when there have a part of students that seems konon-macam-bagus-dan-hebat-dan-chantek-dan-make-up-tebal... owh ok... actually i don't mind about how hard you try your best in putting on make-up stuff or even foundation sampai habis satu botol untuk ke class harian... but u know, you are just a student... don't cross a line of your title of student.. you are still within of that... so please don't ever try that so hard make-up style... maybe i am such mean by saying out all these... but ha ok... aku memang kurang senang dengan semua ni bila manusia begini sangat berlagak dengan aku pasal aku begitu selekeh di class.. tak kesah lah.. aku bukan Regina George dalam movie 'Mean Girl'... hahaha...

yeah mean girl... i love that stupid movie.. maybe because of Lindsay Lohan kot though people are keep giving a harsh comment on her, but i just love her... i had talk to my sis about why teenager wanna be a mean girl... most of American teenager will love to be so cruel or mean on others in purpose to have such a big attention from a very hot guy.. i know how stupid it sounds... but it's truth.. as i am fan of Avril or even Marie Digby, i had read about their history life when they were teenager... both are same.. both had throughout a very nightmare teenager life... Avril admitted that she was included in a victim of mean girl... that was why she prefers to friend with a skateboarders who are finally now being her band members that always give a good backup music for her performance... then Marie Digby was also included... she said, she always took her lunch at a library since most mean girl would tease about herself and refused to friend with her... so sad... i thought they both are quite pretty girls who are best to befriended in a high school... but u know America is a very racist country... they must be cruel in pleasuring their own goods... no wonders on that..

Malaysia is actually a very peace country... we love each other without thinking of "how rich are you?" or "how chantek are you?".... but all are just leave a words... nowadays, maybe certain Malaysian love to be that so 'mean'... please look on university in Malaysia... certain part of 'em are applying that racist style so that they will becoming popular and good university because of only some group of races student are studying there... owh ok very sad to be heard... or maybe in our every daylife, how many person prefer to friend to anyone without being that such 'mean'... as what i storied above, most make-up girl in my schoool are very wanna be like Regina George... tak kesah lah.. aku tahu aku memang selekeh di sekolah.. aku rasa itu sudah cukup cool untuk ke kelas semata-mata....

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