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i did many entries before which are not been posted at my very eventually... no reason for 'em... i've throughout the real life as same as not-so-real-life... you couldn't realize your fake part... enough said, life is still in blurry... rip off everyone's smile or let that blurry being part in your very nightmare life.. mom is a quite simple person in thinking.. she asked for binding the past and forgetting 'em entirely... sounded like oh-mudah-nya-untuk-mendapat-hidup-baru.. the thing is, kebagusan dalam memilih jalan hidup yang selesa... hmm..

i was driving just now... i know that i was sort of silly while yelling at myself with a song.. you know that you are being dumbness when you feel like myself-is-really-stupid-in-giving-a-piece-of-word-to-people... why do i need to show some care on others.. why do i need to let myself feel in pushing... friends are pretty mellow and somehow you couldn't bear to ruin it... i started to listen back the song that so-titled How To Save A Life by The Fray... i do miss budak besar.. the thing that really hope so lasting... maybe have a great guts... hmm...

menjadi seorang manusia sama seperti kau memilih lorong di lebuhraya... tidak kisah memandu dengan cepat atau lambat, kau akan pilih lorong untuk memandu dengan lebih selesa.. tidak perlu bertanya kenderaan sebelah kau, "eh aku memandu dengan betul ke pada hari ini?"... untuk menjadi manusia yang sempurna, jangan kau harap sangat manusia sekeliling kau cukup sempurna untuk dijadikan panduan hidup... berdiri dengan kaki sendiri.. berfikir dengan kebijaksanaan yang tuhan beri...

betul apabila emak kata, manusia tidak semuanya sempurna...