pelastik!

apabila kau mahu sangat makan kasut, sumpah kau sebenarnya mahukan ketenangan.. oh my poor conscious effort in calming.. i used to own many rings.. maybe i use them to lock any trouble so that i wouldn't kill any kebagusan dalam diri aku sendiri.. that's a crap indeed.. tiada kena mengena pun.. the rings were just a number that show how many finger that i always belong to.. ok, it's a ten.. i mean the normal person might suppose to have ten... dan aku normal.. atau aku mahu tambah sepuluh cincin pada jari kaki pula... betul, aku pengarut terhebat.. some say i'm good in mumbling.. you have to believe that you could talk to yourself silently .. surroundings are nothing... they are merely tidak berguna juga.. bercakap dengan diri sendiri lebih mengghairahkan... yeah, same goes to when Iva keep following me everywhere at home... she's a good friend of mine though we often refuse to be that good at all... you are in such a heaven life when family is everything.. ok, now mom is everything in my every single breath.. you ought to be lah ain si pemalas.. bagus apa..

i have a new pet named 'Pokok'.. i am not so into animal.. i used to have tortoise named 'Lori'... stop doubting their names... pernah tak aku kisah kenapa nama aku Ain? sekurang-kurangnya andai aku boleh membela babi sekalipun, aku akan beri nama beliau 'Lampu'... lebih sopan dan menerujakan diri sendiri.. pernah tak kadangkala kau nak teruja tapi kau takut pasal orang lain akan ambil bahagian soal keterujaan kau.. when sort of peoples really love my excitement and makes them feel oh-mahu-jadi-macam-si-ain-ponggong-ni-lah-sebab-boleh-rasa-teruja-juga... yes, i suppose to smile.. or else, "ok lend me your brain for one day and you know how different person i could completely change it till you can't even realize that yours is more exciting than mine"... cuba memulakan sesuatu dengan pemikiran sendiri.. people is so special differently.. cuba lah.. tidak mengapa...
ok now back to new scene of life.. menjadi hati sekeras pasir di pangkor, sangat bangsat kadangkala.. aku hanya teringatkan pada kehidupan di mana kau akan sedar hidup ini tidak pernah cukup kerana kau memilih topeng muka dengan tidak sehabis baiknya... ok, bagaimana kalau aku mahu pakai topeng muka berwajah Roti Gardenia? hebat, kau boleh makan aku setiap hari dan takkan suka aku lagi...


Kelmarin: Bila?
Semalam: Kenapa?
Hari ini: Ok, aku tak suka.