kipas

When: While waiting for Nadzirah.
What: Yes, I slept in my car.
Why: Lack of consistency in sleeping.
How: I insisted myself to be so nocturnal species.


aku suka apabila iva sekarang semakin bijak bercakap... dia akan berlagak apabila berjaya dalam apa-apa jenis mainan dan berkata, "paktu, yes i did it!"... she loves to call me 'paktu' instead of 'maktu'... oh tak mengapa... pandangan kanak-kanak selalu berbeza.. dia fikir aku paksu terhebat... baiklah...

pengambilan

agree with the rumor violence... good.. at a very some times, we develop a thing that so new to be included in thinking... because we live in hanging.. same goes to this, "hold on, i am trying to change the best gear to handle my driving"... we keep hanging the risky life though we know we could handle it so... maka, development of new thing akan bermula di dalam fikiran... dahulu emak pernah jelaskan mengapa anugerah itu satu jenis kebaikan walaupun aku selalu beri rungutan pada setiap anugerah yang ada di depan mata... kerana mata manusia hanya pandang pada sesuatu yang jelas.. sesuatu yang tidak jelas akan hasilkan satu rungutan... itu sahaja masalah pemikiran... it's not relying your very current environment, and it just come from self mind... kehandalan manusia itu terlalu umum... Tuhan sahaja mampu mengspesifikasikan segala anugerah yang kau perolehi... kerana semua itu bersifat tersirat...


ada manusia yang hidup dengan satu kesukaan pada sifat terbalik.. ia hanya bergantung pada kewarasan bagi setiap sifat terbalik yang diminati... maka, mereka kerap berasa was-was apa jantina aku yang sebenar.. hanya dua suku kata iaitu perempuan tulen..



i started to manage my sleeping... i've found a word of 'oh-babi-lah-sebab-tidur-aku-semakin-hilang'... sesuatu perkara tidak pernah hilang... ia hanya satu ujian untuk kau sedar apa itu penghargaan... have you ever knew that by doing one setting, it could help you in managing... set and manage... sekarang aku mula sedar, mengapa abah bersikap cool... the setting that he made is so random until he has a good management towards me... nampak tak di mana adanya kehilangan, sebenarnya ia satu ujian tidak bertulis asalkan kau tahu sistem 'set and manage'... now i could bring my own enforcement in everything... sebenarnya kau mampu belajar segala jenis sistem... itu sahaja...

mula sibuk

i've decided to live in 'holding'.. meaning that all 'aches' will be recovered soon... poor encik V... i washed him in this evening... i mean, yes i did myself... i've sudden in tears while looking at himself... tears really show that how much i put a love to him... while giving a look, then myself is slightly mumble 'aku-sayang-kau-maka-kau-akan-sihat-tidak-lama-lagi-ok-berjanji'... hmmm... that's why the holding is my very last talk...

aku ada dua harta kesayangan, encik V dan cik kapok... tapi pernah juga kadangkala kau memiliki harta hanya kerana kepuasan dan bukan menggunakannya sepenuhnya.. maka, ia bertukar menjadi satu wasting... yes, because of i am a belonging-freak... i love to have everything that seem been listed in my interest list.. i love to learn every single thing though i ain't included in expertise at all... pretty enough that at least i could learn and have them partly and not entirely... then i talked to cik kapok internally, 'nanti-kau-akan-semakin-jauh-dengan-aku-kerana-aku-sibuk-untuk-merawat-encik-V-ok'...

as if they both could hear me so... so that they will know how much i love them both... hmmm... same goes to people... we live in a range of unexplainable persons... sometimes we couldn't bear to speak when they started to act and react as not as usual they are... at this very rare moment, we are trying to handle that surprise in such a way.. but i choose to give a self-talk.. so it could reduce my trying to handle those surprises anyways.. it's just a self-talk.. yes again, i will started to say "as if you could know and hear me so"...

oh ok the song below is a beautiful song that has been sang by beautiful singer along with a beautiful lyric.... i'm a fan of Kina Grannis... that's a name of this song singer anyways.. i adore her guitar playing... she just launched her album... here i have a long sigh and started to question myself why the album is not available in Malaysia... hmmm... cuba untuk nikmati lagu.....



..............lasting peace...............