rub

everything that you have today might not be so stay or included in 'your fine life' forever.. neither you are good in handling them nor you are often in luckiness person, the up and down are everywhere.. things that usually undesirable may come and go without giving a hint.. or maybe it becomes so linger unreasonably... yeah, the meaningless of accomplishment in your life... the giggle i made is a witness of your drown someday... who knew.. i smile with all that pal.. ok... hmmm... why the picture beside has been grabbed?... nothing... but this hair is kind of inspiration for me to be so girly... showing the person that i used to be who is living without a 'burn' routine also with an appropriate life line indeed... hmm.. if the possible is always there, why the useless things are in my choosing?... too busy to seek the wins... saya dah kehabisan sekatan masa untuk setiap perkara...

...................ribut....................

Rules: Biasa
Actions: Biasa
Implications: Luar Biasa

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boleh juga

have you ever try to heal everything with writing? yeah, myself is always.. either you could see the solution or the worse effect at your very end words, you haven't seen in reluctant to write at all.. to be specific, you are actually never in reluctant to write!... mom taught me how to find a good meal in a good way... ok by depending the stability of your penny may lead you to eat a good meal, i could say it's a crap thingy.. the dependent point might be not in exaction.. the good way here may means "i eat before i starving"... erghhh... in a less talk, i was bred by doing a thing without insistence of my surrounds including myself... kau mencari makanan dalam keadaan yang tidak normal kerana kau memang sudah kebulur untuk makan... perut memaksa kau untuk makan... benarlah apabila kau mencari sedikit ketenangan sedangkan fikiran masih di tahap celaru... pemaksaan fikiran terhadap diri sendiri untuk mencari satu ketenangan... maka, setiap penulisan mampu membuat kau bagai aku-tak-kisah-apa-yang-difikir-dan-ditulis-masih-menjadi-isu-untuk-aku-terus-larikan-diri-dari-masalah-hidup..

............percubaan...........

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jemi itu teruja

life confusion is just a matter... and how come if it tends to be like "my current pocket is slightly called broke"... ok, that's a thing that just a point of matter... in improper talk may explain "i never love that confusion part anyway"... so, i'd rather to be in mute... hmmm.... tahu tak apabila nilai-nilai keterujaan sudah kembali walaupun kau sedang hadapi masalah poket... maka, kau memang hebat dan bijak... kesayangan itu huruf e... indeed!

i plan to have a wig since almost every week i cut the hair without a good sense.. or in exact meaning, i do own some plans with them... maka, biar lah... same goes to when i started mumble myself regarding to this poor room.. maka, perubahan akan bermula.. pernah tak kadangkala kau mahu membuat kawalan tapi hanya boleh disempurnakan dengan satu ketawa sahaja.. i call it numb!

kelmarin adalah hari paling hebat!



Pertama: Elok.
Kedua: Sempurna.
Pilihan: Kedua.

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belonging

there are two main words in recent days.. why i only own these two words?.. maybe because they're a very keyword of my day... sometimes this could bring some pros and cons to your life fact.. i am trying to make some laugh... but the seriousness in books never been completely done... what a sigh!!... sink or swim, you have to set back your book rules.. again, sigh!!


pendek.
akal yang semakin pendek untuk berfikir.. membuat keputusan tanpa rasa apa itu baik buruk dalam apa yang kau pilih.. dan akhirnya memberi rasa, "tak salah kalau aku tidak buat macam tu bukan?".... manusia juga kadangkala tidak bijak berfikir dan bertindak walhal namanya ainbijak... rambut yang semakin pendek apabila musim peperiksaan bermula.. sikap semulajadi apabila runsing itu menjadi perkara utama dalam kepala sendiri... boleh juga kata, "kerana rambut itu paling dekat dengan kepala"... kenapa tidak potong telinga sahaja bukan.. kerana itu juga anggota paling dekat dengan kepala.. kewarasan...

keutamaan.
mengabaikan keutamaan kerana terlalu pentingkan soal yang kurang utama... peperiksaan bermula, tapi keutamaannya masih tertinggal di kantin sekolah... soal buku dan pelajaran.... dan soal si emping jagung... mengapa perlu punyai akal yang pendek dalam soal ini... perlu meletakkan sesuatu yang lebih utama di tempat yang lebih baik... soal keutamaan kepada tuhan.... dan ini mula rasa, "saya rindukan apa yang baik-baik dalam diri saya sendiri"...


i am wondering when even the keywords never give me a hint of smiling anymore in my future... the thing that never been appreciated will cleanly disappear without leaving a good effect to you... don't shatter the trust because someone will begin some sick... hmmm... to heal some sadness, i could say, the wonderful feeling when you have a word of family within your surrounds..

.........................imjan.........................

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smooth

i just began the write.. emphasizing that this is my first entry of this year.. so, selamat menjadi semakin dewasa.. deep meaning... by doing your fake big eyes won't make you feel to stick to okay feeling anymore.. am i so redundant with previous entry? the answer is like-i-care... hmmm.... i assume that everything could be as easy as how you separate the egg yolk in baking one sweet cake... yeah, slightly yes if it comes with own creativity... how the specialty of you able to create a good ends... handle it and reach its good end without a cube of doubt... hmm... i have my bad habit by asking and answering myself with uncertainty words.. so, these four are included... at least, you read your mind with your good attitude... seriously...

why the age is being kind of matter to current thought?
because you are a good worrier.

what's left behind that really haunt you so?
my very life concentration.

what's your motivation by doing this?
numb, sigh.. weeping.

your last word?
cut a crap and just be so normal.

.............lepas...............

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pintu pagar

i've questioned myself with "why you feel refuse to write within this very lately?"... you have to know that sometimes everything won't provide you an answer... i conclude myself with "i am a good silent in my very certain time"... aku bukan senang mahu letak perkara tiada sebab di bajusemalam... everything will giving me a good meaning... erghh... to be exact, that good should be replaced with huge.. maka, ain adalah besar-besar sahaja penulisannya.. hmmm... pernah tak kadangkala kau malas mengejar semangat yang sudah tiada, tapi mahu atau tidak, kejaran kau semakin tidak bertujuan dan motif.. saya bukan hebat dalam penceritaan.. nampak tak apabila kau menulis tanpa permulaan yang baik atau tiada pembukaan cerita yang lebih tepat, tapi kau terus bercerita soal kau sendiri tanpa hirau pemahaman manusia lain... i always say, "ini bukan ainbijak kalau tidak lintang pukang begini rupanya"... aku memang manusia kaut.. bercakap soal sendiri lebih kacak daripada kau bercakap soal mereka-mereka yang jengkel...

perjanjian tak sepatutnya diwujudkan... maka, aku tutup sebelah mata untuk semua tu... gambar di bawah ini hebat kerana semuanya terang.. kalau lah terang itu betul-betul milik saya, saya akan lebih waras dari sekarang ini... emak kata, jangan lari dan hilang kerana dua perkara ini tidak sihat... tidak kisah bangsat atau apa sekalipun, aku memang selalu tidak sihat dan jatuh sakit... tuhan beri saya penebusan dosa dengan kesakitan....

...........mari pengsan.........



Pagi: Garam
Tengah hari: Tiada
Petang: Banyak
Malam: Apa perubahan?

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seize

sometimes you know how to grab a thing without a good insight.. the power of deceiving could lead you to be more sick than you supposed to be.. so, i don't really mind if i assume that some parts can be seen in blindness... living in high proud to yourself, then you will also know how to give an appreciation to yourself.. by comparing to give a love to others, sometimes we so believe that it seems so endless which is it's extremely never... this is the thing that i am pretty sure to say "yes, i agree"... hmmm... ok... i love the song below.. the person that dedicated me this song is so meaningful to myself... maybe i just started to be in flying...

Song title: If you want me



..............malas..............

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