kepuasan

what's satisfy you in your entire life.. the answer is nothing.. kerana manusia itu suka kaut.. this is the reason when mom will keep reminding me that there's no failure in everything you do because the intuition could lead you being a word of foolish.. life is wonderful.. no matter dumb you are, satisfaction should be your first prediction... that's it.. my probability to agree with her is extremely yes... ok, Vedera is my favourite band ever.. the singer's voice could make me feel so flying.. cuba lah dengar lagu di bawah ini.. mereka bagus bagai almarikasut... haha... yes, i wish to have like her face shape.. bermimpi.. ok satisfaction and hence i love mine.. belajar lah menghargai, tidak mengapa...

Perempuan: Menggunakan emosi.
Lelaki: Menggunakan kewarasan.
Kesimpulan: Emosi dan kewarasan menghasilkan kesempurnaan.

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terbaik

tiada apa yang pilu dan sedih.. eh mengapa sedih yang dipilih dan bukannya kegelapan atau apa.. nothing here.. ok that's a lie when you say nothing.. nak bercakap juga malas.. jadi apa yang rajin? melihat fesbuk sahaja lah..

baik, apa motif gambar? kerana ini gambar terbaik di mata aku pada bulan ini.. juga dengan alasan malas, maka tiada gambar teruja chantekbelaka yang baru dihasilkan.. mengapa? masih jawapan hanya rajin pada fesbuk.. haishh... the pic below had taken when i was waiting for car service and a glass of nescafe` was served pretty nicely since i didn't bring any drink unless a packet of bread as only for my very lunch dishes.. that was a saddest day.. hmmm... aku rindu pada si nyamuk.. dan juga benci.. itu sahaja...



Kesalahan: Binatang peliharaan bernama 'Pokok' telah mati.
Pembetulan: Tiada kesalahan pada kematian. Memang nyawa tidak panjang.

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bagus

while resting myself in this room, i got to think "hey, as if the room is provided only for rest manner indeed?"... oh ok, a new fringe curtains has been hanged here.. i mean just beside my pc table.. by throwing only fifty bucks for them.. it was like here you go my sweet penny though i am slightly broke.. hmmm... the good effect by doing a brand new changes, you know how it must be so called cool.. ok memang sejuk.. hujan every single day.. so stop with what kind of room that i always belong to.. they often say, "you never own a stability mode at all".. how poor it sounds.. the truth that you couldn't bear to see though you are blinded... that's friggin' poor.. people often trust other people with a high believe without thinking of rebounding.. everything is returnable.. a good deed more likely to be refused so that people would live in revenge mission... that's a stupid mission when you are lack of sense in thinking.. hmmm... yesterday i watched a movie.. i mean a New Zealand movie.. their english are really sad to be heard.. i mean the slang they used.. hahaha.. betul aku gelak tapi aku bom sampai separuh cerita...

i don't know why but i adore with any of beauty.. am i sounded gay stuff?? nope.. i love with fair skin.. envy with sort of peoples who own that friggin' fair skin..they are so special and lucky as compare to myself.. he used to say, "b you are completely in beauty, ok"... then it would end up with some tears.. yes, speechless.. hmm... and now i admire with a wall clock... sounded hell admiration kan.. the clock is so odd.. tapi cantik... just now, while having dinner with my sis at some place within this house area, she informed me bout the clock.. she found it at somewhere.. tahu tak aku akan membeli walau bagaimana sekalipun.. dan bagaimana dengan penggunaan wang kertas yang berlebihan pun boleh mendatangkan rasa kesusahan.. hmm... i love something that really odd... that's normal.. yes.. that's why i hang a cute pacifier in my car.. sama juga bila ingat semula hal rambut aku.. when one of my cikgu asked me to be in proper hair, i concluded that he was not so dare to have one like mine.. haha.. that's freak mind indeed.. kerana saya suka bercakap dengan diri sendiri..

i have no idea when people still in mood to see this blog or even give a read without fully knowing what am i talking about... tak semua akan faham apa yang aku karang.. kerana aku bukan pembuat essay yang berjaya.. when i was schooling, i never submitted any of my essay exercise book... betul aku memang pemalas.. siapa tak kenal dengan sifat malas.. jadi, jangan berkawan dengan aku.. aku bukan kalangan yang hot dan berguna... berjaya dengan sifat sendiri lebih membanggakan.. this might always make me to feel refuse to listen any advices from people.. you can advise me but not in so pushing.. i love to be in depression alone so that there's nobody would be pretty harsh pushing.. it same goes to when you want to sit down on the edge with a cheap smile, do please don't assume that you feel desperate to have someone to sit down beside you too.. people are choosy..

.....saya pemberontak.....

Take: Everything
Put: Anything
What's Left: Nothing

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pelastik!

apabila kau mahu sangat makan kasut, sumpah kau sebenarnya mahukan ketenangan.. oh my poor conscious effort in calming.. i used to own many rings.. maybe i use them to lock any trouble so that i wouldn't kill any kebagusan dalam diri aku sendiri.. that's a crap indeed.. tiada kena mengena pun.. the rings were just a number that show how many finger that i always belong to.. ok, it's a ten.. i mean the normal person might suppose to have ten... dan aku normal.. atau aku mahu tambah sepuluh cincin pada jari kaki pula... betul, aku pengarut terhebat.. some say i'm good in mumbling.. you have to believe that you could talk to yourself silently .. surroundings are nothing... they are merely tidak berguna juga.. bercakap dengan diri sendiri lebih mengghairahkan... yeah, same goes to when Iva keep following me everywhere at home... she's a good friend of mine though we often refuse to be that good at all... you are in such a heaven life when family is everything.. ok, now mom is everything in my every single breath.. you ought to be lah ain si pemalas.. bagus apa..

i have a new pet named 'Pokok'.. i am not so into animal.. i used to have tortoise named 'Lori'... stop doubting their names... pernah tak aku kisah kenapa nama aku Ain? sekurang-kurangnya andai aku boleh membela babi sekalipun, aku akan beri nama beliau 'Lampu'... lebih sopan dan menerujakan diri sendiri.. pernah tak kadangkala kau nak teruja tapi kau takut pasal orang lain akan ambil bahagian soal keterujaan kau.. when sort of peoples really love my excitement and makes them feel oh-mahu-jadi-macam-si-ain-ponggong-ni-lah-sebab-boleh-rasa-teruja-juga... yes, i suppose to smile.. or else, "ok lend me your brain for one day and you know how different person i could completely change it till you can't even realize that yours is more exciting than mine"... cuba memulakan sesuatu dengan pemikiran sendiri.. people is so special differently.. cuba lah.. tidak mengapa...

ok now back to new scene of life.. menjadi hati sekeras pasir di pangkor, sangat bangsat kadangkala.. aku hanya teringatkan pada kehidupan di mana kau akan sedar hidup ini tidak pernah cukup kerana kau memilih topeng muka dengan tidak sehabis baiknya... ok, bagaimana kalau aku mahu pakai topeng muka berwajah Roti Gardenia? hebat, kau boleh makan aku setiap hari dan takkan suka aku lagi...


Kelmarin: Bila?
Semalam: Kenapa?
Hari ini: Ok, aku tak suka.

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lama sungguh

i did many entries before which are not been posted at my very eventually... no reason for 'em... i've throughout the real life as same as not-so-real-life... you couldn't realize your fake part... enough said, life is still in blurry... rip off everyone's smile or let that blurry being part in your very nightmare life.. mom is a quite simple person in thinking.. she asked for binding the past and forgetting 'em entirely... sounded like oh-mudah-nya-untuk-mendapat-hidup-baru.. the thing is, kebagusan dalam memilih jalan hidup yang selesa... hmm..

i was driving just now... i know that i was sort of silly while yelling at myself with a song.. you know that you are being dumbness when you feel like myself-is-really-stupid-in-giving-a-piece-of-word-to-people... why do i need to show some care on others.. why do i need to let myself feel in pushing... friends are pretty mellow and somehow you couldn't bear to ruin it... i started to listen back the song that so-titled How To Save A Life by The Fray... i do miss budak besar.. the thing that really hope so lasting... maybe have a great guts... hmm...

menjadi seorang manusia sama seperti kau memilih lorong di lebuhraya... tidak kisah memandu dengan cepat atau lambat, kau akan pilih lorong untuk memandu dengan lebih selesa.. tidak perlu bertanya kenderaan sebelah kau, "eh aku memandu dengan betul ke pada hari ini?"... untuk menjadi manusia yang sempurna, jangan kau harap sangat manusia sekeliling kau cukup sempurna untuk dijadikan panduan hidup... berdiri dengan kaki sendiri.. berfikir dengan kebijaksanaan yang tuhan beri...

betul apabila emak kata, manusia tidak semuanya sempurna...

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makna raya?

kadang-kadang aku tak pasti apa yang manusia mahu pada hari raya... duit, kemaafan, pergaduhan, makanan, kebanggaan, pujian.. semua dalam hati individu... belajar jadi seorang yang ikhlas, hidup akan sempurna... cuma sedikit tidak setuju bila kata-kata kemaafan diberi melalui khidmat pesanan ringkas(sms). memang ringkas... sebab aku tahu pengirim tidak ikhlas... hanya forward sahaja mesej... bila suami lepaskan kata cerai menggunakan mesej dalam undang-undang tidak sah... maka bila kau minta maaf melalui mesej... juga tidak sah... pandang dengan mata, lebih sempurna dan sah.. betul...

............buluh perindu............

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kawalan

the throat is really stuck with some wise of me.. haha.. aku mula bermalasan dengan bajusemalam ini.. when i got a blink of unwise in my very own mind, so the best place to vent out is here.. what a crap.. the puasa almost reach its end.. so selamat hari raya lah hendaknya.. hmm... i think the time is pretty fast in my these two months.. or maybe three months.. erghh... i started to heal everything with bergerak.. yes, moving.. when you begin a new movement, at somehow you feel terrific.. bluff yourself so that you could able to control a level of ego.. mom says that i own such a high ego that she can't be able to put any of prediction on me... when my very own mom stated this high-ego-matter, so who else could deny this.. haha.. jadi, terima lah aku sehendaknya...

i'm currently listening to the song titled Closer by Travis.. a friend of mine makes me feel rasa-macam-nak-dengar-lagu-ni-selalu-sebab-liriknya-begitu-suka... i am pretty fan of slow music.. oh bunga nya aku untuk begitu slow.. kadangkala kita perlu perlahankan sesetengah perkara termasuk your type of listening... dan kadangkala aku begitu mahu jadi manusia yang lambat untuk dapatkan sesuatu perkara.. tapi bagaimana kalau kau lambat, dan kau tidak dapat apa-apa? jadi apa yang mahu lagi dikejarkan?.. sama juga kalau kau kejar bas sekolah, tiba-tiba ditinggalkan pasal kau lambat sangat... this is what i really called pointless of being slow... wise lah dalam apa yang kau lakukan, semua akan janjikan yang terbaik.. the conceptual of your mind set.. like what my bro said, "bergerak mengikut arahan"... so, make a move as rely on your own intuition.. kata hati itu sangat hebat dan bagus.. betul aku tak tipu...

my final exam will be in my near soon.. ok to be exact, the exam will be after a week of raya.. aku akan sibuk dengan raya dan urusan perkahwinan.. bila akan study?.. who is getting married?.. don't ever assume the marriage is for ain.. aku hanya selalu bertanya, ada sesiapa mahu kahwin dengan saya? ... haha.. emak started to be such in a drunk mode.. she said, "emak mula risaukan awak adik".. what a precious of worry... terima kasih pada kesayangan saya yg ensem ni...


Perkara utama: Saya semakin hampir dengan cemburu.
Perkara sampingan: Saya tidak kisah lah.
Perkara wajib: Facebook! (gila apa)

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