satu malam

this is night no more..already morning..mom will scold me afterwards once she noticed that i'm yet sleep and keep sitting front of this monitor...sometimes i juz heard the door is slamming...dunno where it is come from..hhmmm...then i juz get thinking and remembering the moment when i was in school-hood...still missing those things...i used to can't stop myself being hunger of wicked..i used to play truant the school...not truant the class..but the school...but i was a prefect student....i was dumb maybe...it's indeed of worthless..because when now i get thinking about those bad deed, i am such a fool...i can't heal the fate..means my fate for now..then the word that i always use nowadays is 'if'...if i could change myself since in my school-hood...if i'd be able to think my future life clearly since in beginning... if i'm not that kind of loss person..yeah...if i force myself to study and be a good one for parents...because they are actually suppose no to be fraud...hence i am lost...lost in everything...when people surround me proud with their good yield in study...owh girl...u are none of succeed...being lost when they are almost done their journey...but me still waiting for...waiting for...what kind of waiting it is...blame myself..i cant stand this humiliation anymore...so when gonna try to be the new one...i try to keep hanging on my life...do change maybe...hhmm....i sudden in tears..lots of terrific of my own vice....my own stupid mind...this is such a suicide...then get back alive by holding new fate of life...astaghfirullah....hhmmm....it's 4 in the morning...i am start hungry...so maybe i should napping myself when i'm started starving...anyway...mom, i do love u..really...indeed...

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kenduri-kendara

a very happy 'peranten baru'.. huhuhu... she's my new kakak ipar... so waiting for kak yaya lak.. hhmm.. has been done the kenduri in phg.. that is bentong.. my lovely hometown.. i was tiring after that kenduri.. so kaki seem already patah... hmmm.. thnx for those that did come to kenduri.. me shot this pic when kenduri juz finished.. more pic will be uploaded in 'flickr.com/chantekbelaka'....

......mekaseh......

tummy

owh....i am so depress....juz a simple tekanan...b, u got that hot one already..u didnt even realize u are among that kind of 'em....owh...owh...manis bicara...hmmm...tummy yg buncet...maybe i got the asthma that was come from u syg...a bit breathless...since the body become fat lah...not really fat...this is ain't no fat lah syg....manis nya kata2...huhuhu...xkesah larr what i used to be, u are such my golly sandra...hahaha...u often tease me with the eisley thing.....ahhh....they are better than the other band yg dah tercemar otak nya dgn anasi-anasi endon yg stupid...so here is my hand with the rising finger fuck...hahaha...seronok gado pasal semua neh...hhmmm....then here is home story...there have a lot of 'jajan'...huhuhu...i mean the keropok-keropok yg xelok dimakan...me n sis went to heboh2 then roughly bought the mister potato with the kuantiti yg byk....it's saja...we have no other thing to buy...since the silky stall pad with girly stuff n girly org...hahaha...then ushar hotlink lak...owh shit ahh korg org hotlink...muka semua nk ketat...cm kimak je maseng2...they are less of courtesy...biar kan...hmmmm....who else need to eat those 'jajan' unless me...so this tummy getting berlipat again...again n again...seems like lagu jewel...the simple ladies girl yg rock...i'm her big fan...so this is one of my way that let abglong knows what kind of music that i listen to...hhmmmm....blah...blah....sedang gusar akan lipatan...

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sangat-bodo

xtau apa yg sgt bodo...i juz arrived at my home...we got ramble juz now...hhmmm...we were totally being in muddle...we then pecah kepala get thinking bout our own business...hhmmm...i ate the lolipop...thanx for giving your smobee that lolipop which come along with something like whistle maybe...i flew it out.. hahaha...hisyam...rendu...rendu...chenta...chenta... actually i'm planning the project of something art...owh...i am fucking art-sick...since i even know the value for those seni...i then now sparingly having made some kind of stuff which will be able to help me in money matter...sounds good...very good lah...despite the intention is begin with main2...suddenly it comes in a great support from manusia surround me...maybe...i'll ask korang that kejadian...hahaha...tah apa lah...hhmmm....my post title is sgt bodo...xde apa yg bodo...maybe the internet connection yg cm agak babi...semua web xleh nk bukak....nothing else here....

ain hot...ok....

........p.e.a.c.e.........

sick

today is about my sickness...alahai...manade saket sgt....a bit coughing and flu...owh shit..since the flu is getting better, kemudian batuk pula....islam said it's a life revenge..it's a sin abolition....whereas we'd rather to take medicine so that we could be able to feel that better...apa2 saja...maybe it's a life essential..bodo...ngarut seronok saja...uhukk...uhukk...(im coughing).. i am yet sleep...while the lips is singing the deliverance...noon today i watched the movie "without a paddle"...hhuhuhu...hhmmmm.... serious.. i ain't no those well to create the new long post.. maaf diri saya... tido lebih enak mungkin... rendu h i s y a m....

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flame

hhmmmm.....the life is flaming me....nonsense...i am actually and currently and recently being a fan of marie digby...huhuhu...owh...don't soak up the sun..wuteva saja....the flame thing is the car which completely leave us...who us??...hhmmm....the 1st car of us...we did use it in every single of matter...juz be nice with the new one...we do maybe...hisyam...he's my beloved someone..hhmmm....now is the best moment for me to make a great collage...yeah...the very beginning for the fool thing...but it's worth...i'd able use 'em to examine my own self...juz make the crap words or even book as a huge of delight...so...so...so....ain is budak bijak..apa2 jer....as long as it's not a junk stuff..gross mind...hhmm....some say i am a grumbler...substitute the best with the worst one...i'm trying being a grateful of person...then they asked me for being budak ati lembut...shut the fuck up...byk mengarut arr kali nih...the title above is come from my beloved song...which is eternal flame...so suka ati....hhmmm....now tgh dengar lagu branch tiap2 ari...jari hampir putus maen gitar tanpa henti...xder arr enak juga...but the satisfaction....what say u???.....pahal nk sibuk erkk...hhmmm....waiting for the next trip to go to penang...i need to buy the cetak rompak of prison break for season2....unwillingness...tolong ahh...nk masuk belajar...

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penang bridge

finally, the raya has been celebrated di rumah tersergam di jelutong bukit...owh....then going back to pahang...rendu kampung...thus now i am in penang...sambut raya shopping di sinih...abah already gave a raya duet...owh...amat more than 'them'....them is adek beradek yg loved..mereka dah besar panjang pendek....i'm the most kecilan instead...blah....blah.... anyway,just get a bliss from these...owh...means byk yg berlaku di sinih...which are mom's good deed...sacrifice for everything...hhhmmmmm.......i do love the long night market...hahaha...the longer and famous place...for those org penang,amat mengerti....sy belajar jadi manusia di sinih...maksudnya human whose blind in paying....shit shit saja...i've spent a lot maybe...seronok ke get vacation here???.....hhmmmm.....i made this post while waiting for azan subuh...alahai....sounds baek budi pekerti.....hhmmmm....but i cant even berwuduk....i am period..ekeleh...gila market nk cita datang bulan di sinih...memalukan erkk....go to heaven...let me berenti dan masuk tido...an hour afterwards mahu continue the jalan2 session...sialan saja bila gerek ini menjadi ikutan....maaf....amat maaf....ain is only ain...aku berak taik sendiri beb...

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menggaru

today..arinih....isk...a long time i've never made the ngarut2 in this post...now got new thing which is ain.hujan.ribut...huhuhu...i am not a photographer..but i do love being a day dreamer...too much...we leave a week to sambut hari raya...owh shit yg amat...agar dpt duet raya....hhhmmmm....menggaru....actually have no much thing were happen in few days...juz a usual thing...my standard manner...so garu sampai burok...wah...it's a ridiculous post...bored...hhmmm....now i'm using my oldskool hp...have a camera neither front nor back..it's a mono..huhuhu....abglong said,"adik,let me pinjam ur hp for a days".....so let him pinjam larr..bukan leh bwk mati...as a confession, i seems like have been grounded...can't even lepak2 anymore..owhhh...i am missing my study moment...so this is what we called balasan...if i'd be able to look behind me then the time might let me menggaru again...means i am actually can do nothing...juz through a life as great as can be...hahahaha...apa larr yg ain mengarut neh...ain.hujan.ribut is still in beginning...i have fucking sick to type more often...

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niat yang baek

the 2nd of ramadhan... it's enough of time in bringing me being this way... much of changes.. huhuhuhu.... bak kata org melaka, don't judge book by its cover... i am badly ain which barely keep increasing my pahala... but it's hikmah of ramadhan... i'd rather stay at home and keep wearing telekung in 5times per day... then yeah, i can if i put a tough of trust on myself... who knew except Him... so jadik org melaka... my hair won't bring a true meaning of diri saya... hhmmmm.... mulut sy agak pookymark... tp ati sy agak baek.... aduhai... tau arr bulan puasa nak bersaya pula... huhuhuhu... while waiting for a next prayer, i still can pose in front of camera... hahaha... the view can shows ain is rock though the kaen putih yg suci itu cover the body... it's chantek... i admit the compliment... wah... blushing... bring shame on me... blah.... blah.... blah..... big thankful to God at least i am realize my own taggungjwb.... at least i am not reach beyond the boundary... still within of it... sigh... terharu.... ramadhan is such a beautiful bulan.... i do appreciate it... the promise... hhmmmm... time asks to take a nap.... esok nak sahur... goreng jemput kurma... owh amat layan... fullstop.....

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hard to disappear

try to make it better... hhmmm.... juz have no idea... seems like i've launch my new single... ain dah artis... 'hard to disappear'.... hahahaha.... it's ain's edit meh... tidak keterlaluan.... i am missing the guitar sedap... the point is how far the best thing i've already made for 'self'.... alahai.... mengarut nya.... wuteva... the blog is mine.. i'd write once i intend to do so.... i am currently idle.... sit on the bed while thinkin of debt plus money plus kawen... owh shit... u r only twenty-one girl... stop dreaming... yerp... look forward lah ni... that's why think of kawen... sounds gedix... auuuwwww.... repeat, i have my own bed??? nonsense.... i juz lay down my body on the floor... how kesian..... hhmmmm...... time being for me look outside the tingkap... then say, chantek nya dunia.... when gonna try to change myself??? it comes from inside... what inside?? from this damn hot body lah.... yerp.... mom said, there's nobody could change myself unless my own self... how sweet and precious of words... sbb tu adik syg mak.... see touching lak... alahai ain.... ain is juz a big girl... i know the time insist me for being budak yg mcm2 jenis perangai.... dunno will end for these... abaikan... i learn from the rumours of life... saying that i have no shy utk jd mcm2.... but it's surely not a necessity..... too wordy... i am ignorant.... help myself won't bring a changes..... do need someone else to keep helping me... alahai... gatal sebenarnya.... tiada apa utk dibicara buat masa ini.... syg hisyam.... fullstop...

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terima hakikat

arineh is bezday 'the soul'...huhuhu.. he is my soulmate till the end... luv u uh...but the hakikat that i should accept dgn tabahnya is bout the amount of salary... wtf... how it comes with a small figure as it compares to my job.. means the result of my job including the day i used to work a couple of week b4.. amat saket ati.. but juz terima hakikat.. it's my gaji yg tiada potongan epf or etc.. nama pun part time... blink...blink... since left there, how seronok there is no more sejuk.. sejuk is cold.. hhmmm... buhsan with the opis story... back to the title above which refer to my gaji.. have much of list need to use it.. but know lah byk nih je dpt, mana nk cukup for those expenses... i had list them a month b4... i was excited... damn lah sgt.. next week da puasa maybe... then will raya soonly.. baju raya tiada lagik.. alahai... hhmmm... today mom n dad go to penang.. they leave me a job which have to be a good baby sitter...

baby sit for my iva dayana... she rocks my world... iva yg amat chumel... then now see i've sudden forget the damn salary... abaikan.. hmmm... i missed hisyam... we were unable to celebrate the birthday... it's quite fine... juz a days need to wait 4 ur kepulangan... wah... ayat tak hengat.. nak jiwang je... blah...blah.... this pretty eyes are juz willing to sleep... i wish to sit me down on my almari baju... crap words... gtg...

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branch is best

here with me...yerp...branch is juz a cool idol for me being a good guitarist..but me able to play the bodo2 songs which are always sumbang mahram saja bunyi... hhhmmmm....what else..cita2 wish to be a great economist a.k.a an accountant..hahaha..wtf...sounds hebat..but heart is so into this kind of music and arty farty stuff...in simple word is edit the pic till look it hawt.....hard meaning to meant..wuteva lah...korang da besar pjg nk view dis blog dan memahami sendiri...hhhmmm....btw, this is my 1st post...will b more hottest than this soonly...must have a big patience in waiting...

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