selekeh

i refuse to write more often in this blog... indeed of hesitation.. sorry to say to my very own self.. i never answer to myself greatly... i mean in no matter sort of situation that i belong to... whatever lah yang aku runsingkan.... hmmmm... i just came back from outing... basically the main purpose is to buy my text book since the distributor for my class refused to send us in bulky anymore... i was being foul mouth by said, "they are so stupid!!".... so i have to find out for mine... the price is pretty high... forget bout the money worried.. but i am currently have a sloppy routine... i think the word habit to be exact... hmmm..... that's sounded so lost-in-a-very-own-good-deed... i gave a glance look to a wall mirror... i tried to figure out some kindness.. i admit to say that 'kind' is a matter for time being... everything in our single life is must be in kindness... for me, that is so cheap... u can't be unsincereness or else u will be the one of most freak human being... i know that i am a very wordy person.. i'm gonna type in a many count of words... or even i will talk in a much of broken words... maybe they never motivate to anyone.. or they may be help some.. for those who is letting waste your time by reading this, u are actually having a high pride in my list... so, congratulation!!.... hmmmm..... i know i have a title of 'selekeh'... sangat selekeh in everything... as what recently included is my habit in managing my life... i know some might say, "mampos lah itu idop ko, pasal apa ko nak gitau kitorang"... woah... wicked... don't mess with me... i know i might reply them, "ko pun mampos sapa suh baca blog aku".... this is no intelligible meaning... aku memang suka buat skrip sendiri... walhal none of manusia is gonna care bout this at all even myself... hmmmm.... actually i just despaired the following sentece for selekeh... biar lah aku nak habiskan kata-kata di sini.. sebab aku berasa sangat malas nak taip lagi... esok lusa lah sambung...

....................macam kambing gurun....................

dwell on

i was delaying this post since i am not a very cool person to let myself to be trapped... indeed... i wasn't so wise in putting the confidence... what the hell trap here?? seems someone had bumped my head then said, "u've been arrested!!".... so police thingy here... this ain't sort of cops at all.. but i slightly felt it ... i was keep thinking should i dwell on every single post that i want to say it out... i'm stuck.. i felt reluctant to write... am i supposed to?? shut up... i cannot be... that is why i still post this new thinking... i should stop complaining the very-lack-of-confidence here... ok now i feel far great than a few seconds ago.. aku memang manusia gelabah... ke kelam kabut?? itu seperti clumsy nyanyian Fergie.. she's clumsy in love... but i am clumsy in writing... semua ini rungutan aku sendiri.. biarkan aku berlamunan dan berfikir sendiri... ok just now i played the guitar since i never touch it in a many days... so poor encik kapok... my finger also started giving me a little hurt once.. everyday i bet myself to stop being lazy... sometimes the promise isn't enough to change myself... i am hard headed... but sometimes i know i have a good passionate about my life... i never give up to ask myself to be more better than before... i could be able to help myself without thinking of kegagalan... benarkah??? aku memang kuat mengelamun.. because my dream is always pure...

..................i am bright..............

dawn of hope

"...............and i give all the love in the world"

If today happened to be my wedding day as the day i made a life-long commitment to my partner, what would i say?? with knowing what i know today, would i change my vows?? thus when my beloved someone asks me how my love is so proven...what would i say?? i could rather to be an excited speaker or just give a silent answer???? the best that might be appearing is so overloaded delight of myself... actually i didn't listen to this song for a years...(maybe)... i used to stick to this song when i was 15 years-old which the time that i just started in love with him.... ok back what i had questioned above... what would i say?? maybe i will give all the love in the world.... same as what The Corrs said in the video above.... how jiwang-karat-kata-kata i am... but people will be that karat sometimes... janganlah ego sebab ego itu tindakan yang macam bagus... hahaha... ok yesterday i didn't go to the RTW.. because i was broken ke?? because i was sick ke??? because the ticket was sold out ke?? because i had grounded ke?? none of these predictive answers... but the only word that i never bluff myself is sebab aku nak berubah dan belajar...ok...ok....ok....ok... beyond of what i had whispered to myself is i feel free with that anyway...

............terima kasih Tuhan.............

awful

selamat hari rabu... as what i had mentioned in my bahasabijak.blogspot.com, the day that called wednesday is so awful.... so jealous when certain part of them got the title... but me?? dapat juga... but used to dapat... it was ok then... right now, i'm in the digital library while waiting for my abgngah to pick me up here.. this is awful either... i have to wait up anyone to fetch me utk blk sekolah.. but at least thank God, i've already have my own table for study... last day, i had made up my own table.. wah buat sendiri erkk.. nonsense... actually the table is useless... the stands were not function at all... but as what mom had called me "so creative girl", then i fixed it up... so the table won't collapse anymore... sometimes the table is seems like meja main mahjung... hahaha.. nuts.. yesterday, i felt like demam... not like lah.. the true sickness... i've got fever last nite.. so i ate tomyam for dinner... in granting the demam will gone.. but not completely gone.. i took two tablets of panadol.. hence, i took a nap without study... damn.. but at least i'm feeling very well today...no demam at all.... hmmmm.... now this library is almost close... so i got to go... but abgngah is yet to be here... di mana lokasi beliau?? owh it sudden just came to my mind about my midterm is coming around... leave less than twenty days for it... damn fast... i neither prepare nor willing for it... since my eyes also need a spec unless i have to handle the tears in every seconds... so poor me... rendu hisyam some more.... hahaha.. tak leyh tinggal.. saket menda ah nih....

..................pistol...................

bebelan terindah

there's leave a week as an eve of new year... see.. i'm turning to dua puluh tiga tahun.... regarding to new year thingy, last day i was talking too much bout it... while standing in front of him, the word that sudden interrupted me is 'pretty'... that was my consuming bliss.... sape tak seronok dipuji... i got no much mood for all internet matters.. seems blogger had blinded me to stick to the rest... i am sick for being friendsterer or even myspacer... maybe they are for kanak-kanak instead.. i had felt it for a many years.. nothing that will suppose to be called so pleasure... sure i'll delete my picture collection soon... being less is better.. sometimes i assume it as a best word as 'perfect'.... mungkin juga aku dah dewasa untuk semua ni.... that's a reason for me to get so active in blogging... seronok kot... last day i had made up a stupid cover again.. aku mmg suka buat cover yg bodo-bodo... i know at least i never try to be like others... i know u've got nerve girl... so ok lah... biar lah.. ko br nak kenal dunia dgn si junkie... hmmmm... here is about an age fear... i am feeling under for time being... much of causes that are letting me begini... how fussy i am.. then i tried to heal them by making many collages... yeah.. i got a great manner in doing this.. hmmm... now my current song that i always keep singing is "drive my soul " by Lights.. i have no idea to love this song... maybe i should turn to a new channel for a seconds.. aku dah terlalu banyak melalut...

.........selamat jalan........

live in hijau mood

yesterday i went to some random mall... in brought along an intention to get a new hijau converse... but malaysian are most prefer to pay a kasut yg over painted... actually we just don't need to be more beria-ia in everything... takkan sampai kasut pun nak over colorful kan... sick... sebab malaysia takde order a plain all star in a many choices of color...so in short, i didn't get a hijau ones.. i noticed that i'm so into green colour.. everything in my life must be in hijau... woahhh.. apa penyakit aku ni... that was why i tried to get hijau color yesterday... it's ok... maybe i should buy through a paypal... as if i already have my own credit card.. hahaha.. but the furious was certainly being ok since i had found a bunch of books that offered me a cheap prices... i felt thrill at one point... seriously, since i only spent RM2.00 for one story book.. murah gila... hahaha... actually i'm slightly a bookworm sometimes... coz i learn everything through reading.. trust me... someday you will realise that you've been improved by reading... it depends.. if you choose the good source, you might be improved.. or else, you will get zero by your reading habit... hmmmm.... ok... frankly, i hate a very long holiday coz my cikgu will give me an assignment yg banyak... actually i just helped my mom for rendang cooking for hari raya haji... so now is turn to do my assignment.. i have to submit it on 9th-Dec... hated indeed... i need to write my opinion for the subject called 'International Management' in more than 10pages... woahh... what the hell opinion that i'd able to say in those pages.. ridiculous.. but this is a keje skola.. ko kata ko nak belajar gi skola kan ain... baeklah.. aku usaha untuk sedikit kejayaan... i know i never had a dullness in myself for these.. hhmmm... some more, my so beloved calculator is broken.. i know Iva(my niece) is a most cause for the broken.. dia suka campak calculator aku... sedih wooo.. i used it in about 6years... ngaaaaaaa....... ape2 pun i need to buat kje skola saat ini dan beli a new calculator for mine...

..............sgt bersabar.............

i ain't weeping

this is a big hye to myself.. i always have a good way in digging up bout myself... i still learn on it.. sometimes i can't focus in one direction when the cube of another fridge come and see me so differently... i adhere to my belief when i never been so be able to handle my life cube... actually i got to wake up early on tomorrow.. i have a lot of things to face to... but all make sense that i never been well alert in every single promise that i hold to... i shouldn't blame to any piece of others.. the something wrong is naturally come from myself.. actually the point here is about my study... i had planned to buy myself a desk so that i need not to wait for my turn to use this PC table for study... nevertheless i need a peace and so quiet situation in every seconds of my daylife... but the noise is always exist... i never blame surround me.... but... ok lah, actually i used to live independently which stayed in hostel and without thinking of kemas rumah or even watching the TV... i mean i will do anything as my own please with only focusing on my own study life... in a very simple word, i can't live at home when myself still consider as a student... sebab... i couldn't bear to handle a consequence of home noiser... owh actually i always said that i never blame anyone.. but the problem is come from me... i got no perfect solution on this... i need a place that can give me some comfy in study... maybe it sounds like how choosy i am... but this is AIN... apa yang aku mampu buat... belajar dalam keadaan begini... hmmm.. sigh... sigh... i ain't weeping... i just writing... ok....

............tolonglah.............

setelah di tag oleh ober

Starting time:
kul 12 a.m

Current song:
Pombichoron -Korea song

Name:
Ain

Sisters:
sorang

Brothers:
3 org

Shoe size:
7 atau 8

Height:
164 (rasernya lah...aku tak pernah amik tau tinggi aku bp)

Weight:
50kg (setan aku tgh gemok)

Where do you live:
Shah Alam

Have you ever been on a plane:
Pernah juga

Swam in the ocean:
Pernah gak tapi air laut tak besh..aku jadik gelap nnt..hahha..

Fallen asleep at school:
Favorite activity..aku mmg spoil..

Fell off your chair:
Pernah

Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call:
A'ha bile aku gedix merajuk ngn Syam..ngaaaa...

Saved e-mails:
Aku simpan mane yg perlu shja...

What is your room like:
I own no bed set coz i only use comforter.. kesian... i got one closet own made.. there have a lot of shawls... one beloved kapok... one useless kapok... kerusi mainan iva.. satu kompiter.. dan juga lampu tido yg sgt tinggi...

What’s right beside you:
A bowl of maggie.. handphone..

What is the last thing you ate:
Raisin

Ever had...Chicken pox?:
Mestilah

Sore throat:
Lepas karoke... (sama jwpn ober...ngeeeeee..)

Broken nose:
Never

Do you believe in love at first sight:
Not necessary

Like picnics:
Sure

Who was/were...The last person you danced with:
My niece Iva...

Last made you smile:
Can't remember.. I always smile..

You last yelled at:
Iva... sebab dia selalu sepahkan bilik aku..

Today did you...Talk to someone you like:
Ermmm... I talk to him everyday..

Kissed anyone:
I had

Get sick:
Sometimes..

Talk to an ex:
I never had ex..

Miss someone:
Hisyam

Who do you really hate:
Angelina Jolie..(peliss aku benci dia)

Do you like your hand-writing:
Semestinya... I have a nice one.. trust me.. hahaha..

Are your toe nails painted:
Kadangkala..

Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in:
Iva's crib.. but I know I couldn't..

Are you a friendly person:
Yes I am.. sangat...

Do you have any pets:
Never

Do you sleep with the TV on:
Owh I'm not a TV addicted

What are you doing right now:
I'm playing game in my Facebook

Can you handle the truth:
Ermmm... sometimes... It depends..

Are you closer to your mother or father:
Mestilah emak saya

Do you eat healthy:
Yes, I just started

Do you still have pictures of you & your ex:
As above, I never had ex..

If you’re having a bad day, who are you most likely to go to:
Sometimes I'd rather to be alone..

Are you loud or quiet most of the time:
Sangat loud... tapi kalau aku tak suke org tu, sorry beb, aku akan lebih quiet ;p

Are you confident:
Not really.. Aku seorang yg gelabah..

5 things I was doing 10 years ago:
1. Aku darjah enam
2. Dah pandai main2 dalam pelajaran
3. I was a very good in mengaji quran
4. I was a winner of coloring contest in some random magazine
5. I hated my classmate who named Kama. (but now he's quite close with me)

5 things I would do if I were a billionaire:
1. I want to get married
2. Get shopping
3. Started in investment. (I'm a financial lover)
4. Bukak kedai buku
5. Tak nak keja.. hahaha..

5 of my bad habits:
1. Internet addicted
2. Sometimes I like to delay my work
3. Semua orang kena dengar cakap aku
4. Suka tinggal solat
5. I'm a stingy person

3 places I've lived/living:
1. Pahang
2. Brunei
3. Shah Alam

5 persons i wanna tag:
1. Ober Frederiksen
2. Alep
3. Dyana
4. Sherry
5. Mak saya.. haha..

belajar lah

my mood is currently so into blogging... yes, i did create many kind of blogs that owned by me.. saje.. itu semua kepuasan sendiri.. aku tau padahal takde sape pun nak baca blog2 aku.. aahhh.. persetankan.. i never force anyone to be a very main reader for them anyway.. biar lah org nak kata aku membebel sorang2... actually i made my bajusemalam in a deep purpose as my private lesson in english ... i had learned it through the magazine named "Off The Edge".... the mag is quite good for everyone.. percayalah.. tak salah juga.. sekarang cam ondewei nak lagik satu bahasa which is mandarin.. yes, i am searching the best classes for it.. or even the cheapest one for learning bahasa cina.. i know i should improve it in a simple way but the result is still to be called so achievement... i study in finance field.. then i got my future point that i have to learn so many languages as i can.. orang kata tak salah nak jadik bagus kalau tolak segala malu yg ada.. betul ke?? hmmm... this is a very noon of Sunday... actually i just plan to give a moment view for my blog.. but this is accidently post when i got the idea to talk about how blogger addicted i am.... begini lah ain sejak akhir ini...

................handal.....................

adieu this hair

i'm so sorry to myself coz i feel so rare to write up any sucks life of mine lately... i just created a new blogger in malay version... hope may have more pleasure by using bahasabijak since aku juga orang yg sayangkan bahasa melayu... hmmm... actually i just started my new semester with heading a very damn pad of daily classes... means with knowing that i should tend to stick to this new life routine ... ahhh belasah je... i should believe to myself... tuntut lah ilmu selagi mampu... so jadik ahh ain yang bijak... ok... ok... baek... baek... so back to my title post above, basically i'm pretty love my hair.. but sometimes i feel like i'm not cut out to have this hair... really?? so i just planned to cut my hair.. hope most manusia so glad for seeing me with the very new hair soon... (konon mcm jadik nak ptong lah)...hahaha... actually i want to have a short one.... some say it's gonna suit with my face... but my hisyam slightly said, "taknak ahh b, b lagik sesuai rmbut pjg".... yeah... so now i know myself got no dare to cut rambut ini... mengapa eh??? bcoz i feel sayang towards it.. actually my hair is long as it reaches my own ass.. eeuwwww!!!!! maybe when it's on wet, i assume myself wah so sexy wooo... hahaha.. prasan aku... yesterday when i got a short dating with hisyam, then he warned me,"jgn nk ptong rmbut ok"...... hahaha.. who are you for threatening me syg... aku kan mmg suka ikut kepala sendiri.. hanya kau yg tabah menghadapinya.. hahaha.. ok when i talk about to change my hair style, have you noticed that we are actually learn to be the new one... meanwhile we are completely never dare to be it.. actually this is refer to myself.. sometimes i feel so want to be like this or like this... but i know i couldn't... this is not about dare anymore... this is about how i listen to my want being... so when i thought about my hair, i know i have a little listen to myself... sebab bila sekeliling ckp jgn ahh potong, aku jadik cam takde kepastian... ngaaaaaa..... perlu ke??? hahaha... ok lah, i conclude myself as a dare person to say goodbye to this hair... percayalah sebab aku memang akan potong... ok... try to wait and see it... ngeeeeee......

.................tak kesal.................

i'm fat

itu je mampu utk ckp...sbb aku sgt gemok woo....yeah...i'm currently living in unhealthy life... makan selagi mampu... berenti selepas membuncit.... lack of exercise.. bagus lah... begini ah life during this break... i think the age is a main reason utk gemok some more...aku da tua saat ini... hmmm... so i asked my sis how to get a healthy diet.... she's so terror lah in diet.. that's why dia mampu jadik model yg maseh kachak though she already got iva... so firm grasp in diet... tahniah utk beliau... hmmm.. then myself adalah pemakan terhebat... honestly, i never treat myself to do some limitation in eating... kakak slalu ckp aku mmg mkn cm antu.. sbb dulu2 bile mkn, mesti aku x gemok.. i just don't know why dulu jiwa dan fizikal xpernah gemok walau mkn cm setan... apa2 lah org nk panggil aku, tp aku xpernah heran... sbb aku maseh bajet maintain... hahaha... but now, hotak ko ain.... ko da xleyh nk bajet2 maintain lagik... semua perlu dijaga... huhuhu.. so depress oh... as of now, i just trained myself to be more discipline in biting any sort of food.... woaahhh... now i'm pretty know that's why so many girls out there deadly try to loose their weight so obviously... lagik dasyat siap muntah diri sendiri after enjoyed the dishes... ini mungkin lbey sesuai dipanggil kind of stupid girl lah... knon cm lagu Pink-Stupid girl... the reality of life... i never believe bout this at all... but since i'm trying to loose my weight, patut lah ramai wanita jadik bodo sbb nk chantek...hahaha... wtf... xperlu semua ini.. ape2 pun ko kene idop dlm keadaan yg sehat... exercise every single day... eat only a healthy ones.. jgn bazir duit pd mekdi lagik... hahaha.. slmt tggl aym mekdi... ape lah aku merapu... hmmmm...

...........selamat senja nan merah..........

they are sampah masyarakat

i recent felt so sick of rakyat indon in malaysia...they are certain just being okay with local citizen but rest of them are sgt FUCK...i'd rather said that they are totally seem as a sampah masyarakat...i wrote this post while i'm waiting for going to my aunt's house...so i sudden feel so angry with manusia berbangsa indon since yesterday my boyfriend has been voodooed by them...rumor say that they are so terror lah in magic power...what the fuck power is there anyway!!! so what the hell proud that you want to show in my country?? are you going to find rezeki yg halal here or being a great rascal in our eyes(malaysian)?? actually, my bf had storied me that when he went to 7-eleven in the morning hour yesterday, then when he just arrived there and just closed his car door, there were two 'minah indon' sudden came and approached him...after that, he lost his mind... he was only realized when himself was already in his house.... at last, he realized that he had lost his money RM300 + his handphone + hand watch + polo jacket....(i don't think so these are pretty enough for them to rob my bf anyway)..... after he was fully awake from his dizzy, then he just noticed his foot finger was getting hurt because its nail was sudden lost....(at this point, i really have no idea what was going on with his foot finger).... but whatever it was, this is one of voodoo activity from their country that often called 'PUKAU'.... those malay often know bout this... actually i'm ignorantly don't have any praise word on them about this... because they always made up a stupid propaganda that ruin our peace so badly.... in this case, my bf has no prove to made a police report or even the police might ignore him once... so we have no right and justice on this at all because indon-indon got a magic power.. what the fuck... so when this kind of 'pukau' will over ?? actually there have a lot of cases that similar to mine in malaysia... but sometimes, government seems got no right for all these happen... this might be as usual thinking, for me there has a secret corruption among government people.... so what i could ever do dude??.... as supposedly, we can avoid them(indonesian) from staying here or even avoid from recruiting them for a job in malaysia... but too less passion in doing this... and as a result, all the local citizen will be like this.... some more, i couldn't bear to say that sometimes our youth also got a very less passion in succeeding themselves... they prefer to 'lepak' by doing nothing... no intention to think of future.. so they refused to find a job... this is most probably that insist malaysia to accept a non-limit entering of outsider... and as a result, the sum of indonesian is increased in our country... why we got a lack of everything???... hhhmmmmmmm.... i'm proud to be malaysian but this gonna make me feel a huge of regret.... most of indonesian in our country barely thinking of their citizenship.. they done a much of crime in malaysia... i had thought bout this since in last week...but eventually it happened to my bf on yesterday... so this is a great impulse of mine because i need a peace lah wahai malaysia tanah airku....

..........berubah lah semua...........

begini dan begitu

since i felt great with this messy room, then i just gave a pretty well concern on each thing for it..i never own a very much money for everything...some say i was born to be in type of stingy person...i rest my case..lebih mulia jika dipanggil berjimat...so i actually own the money in many count...that is why i bought a lousy fuck shawl and so on for the simple renovation for room of mine...this is unpleasant affection from my final exam..i got no idea for it...just hope to get a word PASS...not sound so good uh...wuteva...hmmm...so back to the story at the begin, last day i went to TAR road with abgngah...i never so often for being there..there's only for those who having a budget shopping instead...i mean u could find a word cheap for every single things there...i was included in that kind of budget shopping...hahaha...noticed that abgngah forgot to bring his d4o...it was not bring some regret since ari juga hujan...hmmm...most indian people filled the road and that was giving me some realise bout hari deepavali..no wonder when part of them kept looking at us because we ain't looked like indian at all...good one...hahaha..my hair doesn't look like malay either....when started compare my own hair, i was recently cut my hair..i cut myself...eh nope...actually my kakak sgt hebat...she was helping me with haircut..actually her result is awesome...i have to pay nothing, that's why she deserve to be called kakak yg hebat...hahahaha... some say i got a korean look... woah....perasaan oh...whatever pun, aku mmg pemalas dlm soal penjagaan rambut...i don't really care if i look dumb with this new look on my head... ade juga mengatakan dgn sikap pemalas aku ini gonna bring me a very cute look...woahhh...perasan lagik... itu kata2 manusia di sekeliling... i now how far i could be in very cute or hot position... gigi aku maseh panjang lah...hahaha...ok2...yesterday i had changed my room look..1st of all, thanks to my beloved abgngah, he often give me some help in everything... i shifted out some stupid shelves so that i able to decrease a count of it... sometimes bilik ini tiada hala tuju...ok lah...so i created a very creative look for my closet...for me, it's chantek indeed... yes, yesterday when i called my mom, i said "mak, adik g beli brg2 nk chantekkan bilik"... then she replied,"yeke, rajen nye, nk wat cmner kamu mmg bdk yg creative"....hahaha.... mekaseh mak... so after all done, i promised to pay a burger king for abngah.... since he helped me a lot juga... sbg ganjaran.. huhuhu.... finally, i just don't think of bilik ini lagik... last night i slept earlier than usual.... tired.... i had planned to be a bonuslinker again within my cuti skola... yet to know it because myself malas dan mahu jadik org seni yg terbaek during this cuti... rindu pada kawan2... at the hell end, each begitu dan begini within this very short week is satu kegembiraan yg sgt kecil utk dilihat oleh mata ati aku sendiri... sbb aku sgt selalu lupa utk ckp terima kasih pada tuhan...

.......alhamdullilah........

waste masa

sepetang ahad.................


Q:what time right now??
A:"owh awal lagik"



Q:lama x agk2 kalo main gita?
A:"x gak..sbb aku da lame x maen"



Q:bile nak mandi??
A:"ondewei lah neh...tp rase cm nk berak dlu"



Q:eh ari hujan ke??
A:"ala malas nk angkat kaen aku sidai td..."



Q:have i took my lunch??
A:"oh belum lagik..td sibuk mkn kuah laksa je"



Q:buleh x nk tgk tv jap??
A:"buleh kot..sbb da lame gak xtgk"



Q:again,what time right now??
A:"pe nk jadik aku byk bazir masa"



Q:so what should i do??
A:"senyum dan buka mata utk buku"



Q:then what for i am keep typing this post??
A:"sbb meja study aku dpn pc....idop aku berlandaskn internet"


........blurrrrpppppppp.............

selamat hari pekse

i hate raya sometimes...but my this coming final peperiksaan gonna let me miss the raya once...xbuleh raya dgn ati yg suka lagi duka...note that i am actually got a very worst baju raya...ini lah dikatakn jika xreti menjahit but highly intend to be a very glam tailor....be cleared, that sort of tailor is ain't me...aku pembaca buku yg terhebat saat ini...hmmmm...

this is a very Saturday evening... while i am studying the subject of finance, i have started snapping my notes by using abngah's lensa... that's why at least i got a more time to spend in my blog...i do hate my coming exam on next week indeed...there's no sort of pleasure when i have to force myself to get reading the buku pelajaran, nak pulak bile aku being in sambutan hari raya...bersabarlah utk mencapai sedikit kejayaan...sigh....i couldn't bear for this unwillingness....hmmmm.... ape2 pun, slmt ari raya kpd manusia yg beragama islam dan rajen berpuasa...padahal aku pemalas gak poser oh...huhuhu...ain mmg bijak memonteng... mahap zaher dan baten...

..........selamat.........

aku syg engkau

aku dan kau slalu ckp kita sama2 xde selera yg sama...kdg2 aku nk g berak....tp kau nk kentot... kdg2 aku nk minum limau ais...tp kau nk mkn mekdi... aku nk kete besar kasut... tp kau nk umah besar almari... sume menda xde sama.. aku suke ckp byk... tp kau suke tgk gigi aku... kalau lah aku mengenali kau waktu aku kuar dr perut mak, kau mesti xde lagik masa tu... sbb kau suke bajet muda dr aku.. hahaha... buleh blah... aku suke sengih.. tp kdg2 kau sekeh paler aku.... kdg2 sume ini membutakan mata aku... sbb kita bermula dgn suka... dan berakhir dgn syg... nilai perbezaan tak buta atau rabunkn mata dan fikiran... sbb kau terima aku begini... sbb aku syg engkau begini...

....renduan....

hilang kuasa diri

lost at the sea...here i go with my study work while i am still playing with 'em...hilang kuasa diri oh...pelembap begini...mana situ sana engkau.....my current day life sgt busy oh...i never treat each day wisely...sometimes lamunan itu slowly eats my mind dan diri sendiri....belajar lah ain si bijak... hmmm.... puasa is almost reach its last day,saying that the raya is almost comes around either...i need to punch out my face for letting it being in kesedaran sepenuhnya....i'm gonna face my final exam on my 7th of raya.... maybe.... but surely aku hilang kuasa diri bila semua benda difikir dlm satu masa yg begitu singkat...i never thought i could say it's damn easy sometimes... baeklah....so put the small matter as a priority of kehidupan...aku sgt pemalas saat ini...saat sebelum ini juga begini...saat berikutnya aku janji xkan begini.... hmmmm.....being in less word or even silent won't fully bring me any sedaran akan salah laku aku sendiri...bebelan helps me a lot instead...just need not a little of wondering if i still can talk much more at any single of time...aku xpernah kenal erti penat utk bercakap...some say aku pembising terhebat... mamposs oh...aku xkaco org lah mangkok...sbb tu aku selalu disayangi manusia sekeliling....ngeh...ngeh...

........mekaseh.........

sy di skola

yerp aku kt skola time neh...then dyana is sitting beside me while we both completing our lab assignmnt...seriously i dun like this subject at all...hmmmm...actually i've already done my assgnmnt..i juz accompany her for being here..so aku sempat je on9...hahaha...now i am completely malas..apa nk jadik...biar lah masa yg menentukan segalanya...huhuhu....now we are in fasting mode...which is ramadhan almubarak is already in about 3 days...hope i can fully puasa for this year...gila...dh tuh bile nk period...ngeh...ngeh....pe je ahh neh aku ngarut...i current feel bored while waiting for dyana settling her work and also wait for our next class which will be at 12pm...perut is berkeroncong saat ini...huuhuhu....actually i juz been an adult girl that finally make sense that i had lived in this world about 22years... woaahhh...saya tua oh...hahahaha...ape2 pun hesyam tetap chentakan saya..apa peduli...ngeee.....

.......slmt belajar norain.......

AIN-lavigne

i common used to use the word AINLavigne... hahaha..like i have a fully same look like AVRIL...hahaha...i love herself since she was being innocence with wearing her sweet tie...then when she was so into her sk8er girl look....this gonna let me remember when my mom threw away those pictures or even posters of Avril in my room....it made me cried when there was no more her hot stuff when mom also threw away my beloved sneaker...how cruel she is.....i sometimes filled my whole day by listening Lavigne music since i was 16teen...that was my teenager world...being a pretty damn naughty while ignoring others perception on me...i always say 'who the hell are you for giving me some wicked look.'...perlu ke korg wat muka setan bile tgk aku...woahhh..i dun really mind at all...hahahha...i used to wear a lot of accessories even my bangle was an uncountable numbers...i just dunno why the person named Lavigne had influenced me a lot...but she just make me felt a word of satisfaction for being me....thanx to encik avril...hahaha..so tomorrow is the day that she gonna perform in Malaysia...i had bought the ticket which cost RM138.00...i'd rather spend my pocket money for the concert though i am currently don't have an enough monthly money...hahahaha...so this is what AIN-lavigne is all a bout....

.........peace.........

the rumors

i just done my exam...last two weeks...this is the exam slip for my very 1st sem...am i so late to be in a semester pertama as a title of student....mamposs saja...aku AIN...i didn't made a very good enough study for the exam...hmmm...juz giv a hope for a word 'pass'....actually on last week my second brother was getting married...tahniah utk beliau...so this is mean that all my siblings already got their own spouse...do i have find out for mine??hahaha...encik hisyam is a far great spouse for the life that i want to be...hmmmm....when we were waiting for my abngah done his 'akad nikah', he gave a very sudden silence...hahahha...i know how nervous he was while the 'tok imam' keep giving a cynically words to him...but it's a usual feeling when we are being a very important person in wedding or in simple word, kite menjadik peranten...hahahha...by the way, i've already got kakak ipar baru named 'kak yaya'... the rumors said that i should go to the avril concert...i had spent a hundred only for the ticket cost..serious i am crazy..yeah..crazy to the music...i am a big fan of her though..i never asked a regret frm mom for liking this 'hantu' avril...mom just a kind of acceptable person..she knows how different i am...i am totally far apart with my sista..she's a very vogue and girly woman...(i have to call her woman since she already got iva)...hahaha...but iva so tends to be me..a certain things that she loves to be like her very close aunty or i could rather to let her call me 'maksu'....whatever lah...ape2 pun, aku maseh kachak di mata sndri dan hesyam...nothing to berkata lagik...slmt malam ain si drama queen...hahaha...lavigne yg rock akn jiwa aku sndri...mekaseh bergelar perempuan yg bijak berlamunan....

..........ekhlasss..........

- a i n -

library

i am in the library while making this new post.. i just don't have a good reason to face this stupid monitor which is i can't log on to any kind of community web except this blogspot...so that is why it's a stupid college either.. hahahaha... i am fucking have a much of work since i have to made up some journal bout how my whole day is going on.. seems creating some essay in my schoolhood... i don't like this thing at all... there's been a week i didn't sleep enough time...i will sleep 3hours every day...this pretty eyes will going buruk soon.... please, i need to sleep...i was missing my study at once before...but now, it's treating me like a life of hell...selamat belajar cik ain...my hair is currently buruk...i have no much time to make up myself...do i need some rest...yes i have...but now is turn to keep awake every night...sigh.....hmmmm.....i miss to make some shopping...kdg2 duit xpernah cukup...actually abgngah wanna buy the semipro slr...he's the kaya one...that's why he'd be able to make a high demand of shopping...semoga aku buleh pinjam harta beliau itu...hahahaha....he's getting married in this coming month....my exam also in this coming august...even my birthday also in august...some more, puasa will just come around....puasa ganti maseh xcukup...sy nk belajar jadik bdk baek...

..........pertolongan.........

sekejap

this is sekejap moment to online...i am studying the law subject...fuck...i hate the word of 'law'...tomorrow got the quiz...actually leave two or three weeks for midterm...damn fast...i'm still surrounded by exhausted of moving this new house...hmmm...this is new life...new room...currently hate with this messy room which i can clearly view my kain baju without almaribaju...i need to find new one...owh shit when use the word 'buy'...aku xde duet dah...ok....hmmmm....tomorrow i've intend to fasting...lebih mulia disebut puasa ganti dan sunat...hahaha...ain si baek ati dan mulia budi pekerti...ngeh...ngeh...since the purpose is to keep saving my 'pocket'...so buleh dpt pahala juga...senyum lagik...ngeee....hmmm.....actually i juz wanna online myself for 15mins....so now back to my law study...dan kpd diri aku sndri,selamat berpuasa dan sembahyang utk esok hari....juga kembali bijak hendaknya...

..........baeklah.......

my sibuk week

dh lame xbebel segala parah dlm idop kt sinih...nothing parah...again use parah word...hmmmm...lately, i've been in so busy week...thinking of study...the classes yang cm sundal...aram jadah punye kolej...wuteva since i've only keep studying there for 2years maybe..seems jimat masa kot...hmmm....then my home thing...iskkk....think of settle in with new house....think of my car...life is actually suck....bla...bla...i have no regret...ok...hmmm....now i've eventually done with my "jual.sampai.habis"....it's a very simple blogspot where is i had put a girl thing inside that blog...senang ckp,jual brg ala kadaran...hahahha...that's my sis business actually...she insisted me to give a help...so i just tolong lah..she's always said i am her assistant and herself is the "CEO" one...gila kuasa...hahhaa...then we will come up with other art stuff which i gave the name "chendawan.craft".....nnt lah br siap...that one will be done with its own website...no more use the blogger...huhuhu....actually the name "jual.sampai.habis" is given by me who is encik AIN...hahha..nice and the very simple name apa...for those who really know me, u guys know how senget i am...huhuh...i've often use silly and crazy name...it's me yang bernama AIN...look at my myspace which the name is almarikasut...lampusuluh lah...even the blogspot is also unreflective name...bajusemalam... hahaha...i love the way i think and had try to simply put my own word...so that i know i'm the ori one...no tiruan...huhuhu....so back to coret bout new house...i got to move to new house...but still within this area...since my class is quite nearby with this area..not really near coz when i get the cab, i have to pay 20bucks per two trips...isn't it FUCK right...so again parah thing bout my car....soon will get that car...juz be cool b...sym asked me to be cool as him...hahhaa....this is ain't kind of cool that i need one...i have to go to class lah...bkn kereta utk bermain2 drift di hicom...hahhaa..gila rendu nk g hicom...my weekend night is agk slalu busy...hope my busy week will over soon...i hate to say that i am ank bongsu!!!!!!

......habis.......

pekerjayaan

today is my last day to be a 'bonuslinker'...as a usual word i used to use b4..suke2 ati nk bg nama bonuslinker..hahhaa...the job is pressure one...sgt xsuka...but that kind of job able makes money anyway...keep facing the monitor in about 8hours...isn't it such an unacceptable life...i have no life by choosing this sort of field...being an 'office people'...it's part of shit for me..maybe gonna miss kak nik..she's the one who is always keep talking with me...since she's sitting beside my pc...rindu baby amil....hahahha...i juz dunno if kak nik read this post,maybe she's a bit feel to be proud...how ain really remember her by mentioning her name here...hahaha...ain't a big deal...no prob...the rest i also so sure to remember...juz dun worry..i'll come back after 3months...hahaha..waiting for salary...not really wait for it...i have another thing to let as an important one...hmmmmm....back to the field of job...hmmm...actually i started blaming myself...i haven't feel it once...but i couldn't stay with this field anymore...hesyam asks me to be some other type...so i will lah...juz wait n see...maybe i will...it's all about maybe...juz need to confirm lah ain...sgt penat with 'maybe life'...hmmmm....whateva i've plan to be, but i am currently free of the redemption thingy...hahaha...sgt xsuka dgn benda itu semua...hmmmm....then now will going to penang...again my famous place to go to....i am currently on my diet...everyday not eating the nasik...it works lah...some say i am fatty one...only the hip area shows that fatty...some say it's sexy lorrrhh...hahaha...pilamapposss pe org nak kata...aku idop dgn haluan sndri...xpernah mintak simpati sekeliling....hmmmm...as of now,keep increasing lah the saving...many things to do...im an independent one...so i'll dare to prove it...juz don't get me wrong coz im not that sort of silly...aku belajar utk berjaya...engkau sape nk merapu...ape2 pun,kami mmg chentaan...

........hisyam........

my lovely

hmmmm....i sudden choose this title coz i got an unexpected reason to think that maybe quite a days i didn't see and even hold my lovely kapok...do miss u encik kapok...when i'm daily juz arrived at home in the evenin' hour, the encik kapok could makes me smile or even cry..i am crying while strummin some killer note...this is only a words...it doesn't figure any sort of killer at all...but the rhythm sometimes makes us being high...then my head get show a bit damn bad line which come from some wrinkle i had made to try forcing myself being strong...so it works..but sometimes i stand in front of that mirror, i know what i saw...hmmmm....u are such an adult one girl...too adult...then in tears again...i am crazy beautiful...bla...bla...bla...i still hold that my lovely kapok at that moment...then i rubbed this whole left finger...looks out of fairness...owh ok...this is what u need one...wanting being hell superb...hmmm....

.....i am deadly drown...

life goes on

the title is come from a song..hmmm..it's quiet a couple of month i didn't post any new bebelan yg parah here...maybe a couple...hhmmm...why i use the blogger as a place to get highlight some parah things in my okay life...what okay lah??...hmmm...life is seem as usual one..i ain't no special lah...hmmm....owh ok...sgt rendu life yg tiada sempadan for the ilmu thing...i am currently dead here..while keep playing eisley song 'go away'...owh Sherry Dupree is really fucking terror...i need abgngah to read and hear the chord..so when gonna pluck as a hell great as her own way...hahhaa...be a fantastic day dreamer...then i'll slowly make some love thing without any regret pal...ain't no serious coz it's a junk shit part....do someone know what sort of thing i had try to say...huhuhu...it's enough clear for me though...so hell ya...hmmm....someone or some looser had try to be my own way...so mereka adalah babi yg saket tekak..they are really care for my any changes..aren't they bodoh???...stop being bodoh ahh cengitu....serious u look damn lust pal..ain't no hot like the way i am...hahahaha...it's a stupid thing...let it be...hmmm....the love life is going far fine and it's full of excitement...i trust and strongly believe one of my ridiculous think where as i know when i am very late to get started crawl the hill, i have a lovable conscious to make me feel in a sense that i know i can reach at the top in someday...so i have no worry with that...u can't stop me...that's it...

.......fullstop..........

well done

there's nothing should be called as a well done of work...as a routine of myself is wake up early in the morn' as sis is going to work..i'm under a great terrible of same things every single day...sometimes i ain't no believe i'm fully awake on weekdays without going to class...wake as earlier as i should because of iva...my famous last word...what else i could ever do in this house..hmmmm....i bought a book...it's just a book...book will revise me some bla bla bla...need not to say in here...only me need to know that pleasure....hhmmm....yesterday when i was tiding up all cloths in that odd room, i've sudden get watched surround...what if i paint the wall and change some of it...since abangah left, have nothing inside there that been changed..so ask darling to help me some time to color the wall...he's just fine with that request...without thinking any reason to get off of me...it's a bliss...hmm...in the meanwhile,i am currently being a fat...the weight increased to one more kg...fuck...sis ask me to get some diet..."so stop eating in the midnight"...sis said that maybe i could be this way because of iva's milk...yeah, i just love her milk taste....so sis just said it's a big probably...then now i notice it's a totally right hypothesis...because i used to be this fat (maybe more fat actually) because of infant's milk..it's full of calcium, vitamin, and so on....hahaha...sis gave me some warn which sounds like this,"do not drink iva's balance milk, it's able to let u big"....hahhaa...what a 'big'...hmm...so i am on my way to stop that liking..huhuhu....then now is work out my study...almost reach it...yeah...wait and try to see it...hmmmm....love to see my brand new thing in this terrific of life...i have a good passion in everything i do though...so be smart in facing this poser...that's it...

..........smile..........

ulangtahun

hmmmm....owh it's an anniversary ahh...so we are already being together in 7years...luv kamu encik hisyam..hmmm..i really don't have a good enough mood to get rajin tulis2 dlm ini blog..hmmm....i'm getting hide some real thing into my closet...so maybe it juz give me a better feel once...that closet is pad with baju2...ye lah..baju kebaya also byk...hmmm....today is my anniversary...do pray for us huh... i mean for those who really know us since we were in form3.... hahahha...saja je nk cita over2... hmmm...yeah,every year tiada smbutan..we juz celeb as a normal keadaan...hahahaha...apa makna pada smbutan...so terima lahh cara dan keadaan memasing as long as that luv still being part of ourselves...xperlu cerita how it has been happen...surely i do need some good reason to keep going this chenta...hahaha...sgt cibai...hmmm....abaikan..apa2 pun aku terima ko seadanya encik hisyam...owh ok...hhmmm...tomorrow i have a trip to penang..see penang again...xde tempat laen ke...abah laen kali next month kje tmpt laen lak erkk..pergi ahh UK cm k.yaya....kdg2 afrika...leyh gak layan cm omputih kt sana...huhuhuhu...yerp,tomorrow trip...so should get packing some ape2 yg perlu..but i am such a lazy person...kekadang perlukan emak utk bebel..hahhaa...hmmm.....sok ahh pack erkk...yesterday i listened the song "jika"....nyanyian melly goslow...(dunno how to spell her name,seems like coslow)...hahah....it's been a years maybe didn't sing that song...actually it juz a sudden moment while waiting for my digital clock was going 12am(so it's mean the date is already 05/02/08)...hmmm...so still remembering my sweet memories in being teenager...owh ok...aku xtua...so xperlu imbas kembali...huhuhu....nothing else...i am young n cool...

..........fullstop.............

sementara

ok come on lah...jadik org mesia kali neh...xde speakang2...as a usual prob which datang dan pergi...sbg org yg idop..hmmmm.....i juz make a babi of waiting...sbb ape...sbb ko lupe tuhan...pdn muka ko...hmmm....smpai bile masalah xsettle...hmmm...i juz have no idea do i should publish this post...hmmm....since the thing is all about babi of waiting....hmmm....tlg ahh....smpai bile nk dok cmnih...aku xmintak pe2...tp nk ilmu....hmmmm.....still can't figure out my future...dah tahun baru pun dah...cina pun dah jadik tahun baru...serious...juz draw it...ye lah....draw smpai penuh dah satu juzuk buku...ape pun xdpt...hmmm...aku budak hingusan...maseh berhingus dan berkaki dua bertangan dua berhidung tinggi....aku dah semakin besar...dah semakin diminta utk belajar jadik dewasa...aku xsedar semua word yg diguna sbg adek dah xlayak dipakai...neh bukan soal jeles..tp ko mmg da besar ain...ko je pasan kecik...hahahha....aku budak besar...aku tau...tp dlm soal neh...ko xperlu menunggu bintang jatuh ke tgn lagik....ko dah byk abeskan masa begini...ok lah...aku sedar mengambil risiko adalah satu kind of silent kejayaan...tp aku xleyh harap akan berjaya...ko slalu buat silap...kena belajar jadik disiplin dan cermat...duit pun kena cermat...sementara maseh ade nilai2 ingatan ini,aku tahu aku mampu utk lebeyh maju....jadik ahh org yg sygkan akan masa dan duet...ye lah...semua salah aku...dah tuh sape suh ciptakan duet...ko jgn asyik tunding jari fuck kat org...ko salahkan diri ko jeh...hmmmmm.....aku tidur dah tak tentu arah...makan dah byk arah...mane xgemok...idop penuh dgn seronok...ye lah seronok....sbb tuh ko xpernah insap....harap juga akan sempurna...

...........noktah.........

dua-ribu-lapan

selamat baru tahun...not really exciting while waiting for this new tahun is coming...not kind of obvious lah...so with knowing i am actually going dua-puloh-dua-tahun...gain myself is best to feel young as poor teen...not poor lah...saja...hmmm....there's part of my memory that i should tends to forget...so able shows the maturity is already being part of myself...like a ass hell...tiada beza pun...aku maseh muda dan hebat....hmmm....life is no cruel...juz a pure of reality...such a flow of stream that let us be in greater than yesterday...if i am luck in a selective of that great...glad once..hmm....new tahun will brings me a new vows and hope...which that might killing own self...so reinvent the history...gila...jgn jadik bangang...ko tahu ko mmg hebat..hmmm...i wasn't so wise beyond my years...nothing best and better...hmmm...should i need take some rest on this??what this lahh...jgn nk wat ayt cm babi aljabal..cukup lah...hmmm....ok...ok....yesterday got dinner with my sibling at TGI fridays...thanks kakak coz paid the bill...such sesak...but juz queued up the row for that dinner...so i was looking some slipper at the booth surround...didn't even found the chantek one....after a minutes maybe eventually got the seat....we planned to lie the waiter that yesterday was my abglang's birthday...hahaha....he's actually was born on Jan but juz forward the celeb ahh....the date supposed be on 24th....so only got piece of cake for that...saja2...huhuhu....since the waiter owh such a cute maybe...sis asked me did i fall into him....hahahha...syam will rotan me...owh tidak...i stick to one..be happy...dont worry.. hmmm...then today story which mom cooked some dishes yg dah lama tak makan since she left us in this house...sedap mak...i missed u damn much...hhmmmm....then iva already got the gigi...hahahha...not fully lah...she's cute with that new thing...maksu also cute with this big gigi.. hahaha...nothing else...xbuleh tido ketika saat ini...

.......tata.....