sakit itu seksi

siapa kata entri rutin harian tidak seperti taik?? memang taik.. kau tak perlu memberi kata-kata terperinci.. cukup sekadar "owh ok aku ke sana arini"... tak perlu seperti "aku membeli spenda kaler kuneng arini".... nampak tak bila dua ayat ini menjadi perkara utama dalam menulis.. cuba berubah.. itu sahaja.. hmm...

feeling loath every time i breath.. so the throat really has a big thing in my today life.. sick is sexy... i love to be sick... so be it.. hmm... i saw a new haircut of sherri (Eisley) for her summer season... cute and pretty loveliness...

i am listening to movingmountains... the songs are pretty okay.. indeed the quality is so matter.. don't blame me if i'm really some turnover person... there are less of quality in everything.. people keep overdoing in spite of how lack of quality they belong to... but the word of showing off are so creepy...

finally all make sense when someone's watching over my words... the attitude is so hilarious... u know when person stabbed on your back with barely manners... then u know what the best react that need to against on... i am bad if u wish so.. but try to see the reality, high possibility to sort those myself out... in naive say, "too kind to kill others".....

............cuba tidak mengapa...........

the focus

everyday must sleep at a very late night... i haven't gotten my enough sleep though.. mom would keep calling me and it could explain me how she's trying to force myself for being awake... but i still absorbing every single thing of my bedroom with a lazy lay down on my bed... it wasn't my very first time to be like this way.. this is such a bad routine when i got no class on the other day... i just found the new word for this very bad habit.. i am 'nocturnal'... the word describes a meaning that i still yet to sleep in a very middle of night while doing some bullshit.. don't think that far.. i am not a clubbers at all.. the bullshit is not really sort of shit.. coz i'd rather to be at home while keep looking at a lappy screen or even this pc... i lazed every night with a good way instead... hmm... that's pretty bizarre for me at least.. owh ok...

for time being, my sis and i are really crazed in outing.. the thing that we spend somehow for letting go a crumb of boringness.. not absolutely bored... but the habit to blow own money anyway... haha... that's a cheap reason... i couldn't bear to see everything.. on last few days, once we arrived at some usual mall, i said, "arini adik memang takkan shopping lagi, i promise myself"... owh ok.. the statement i stated was tend to be so delirious... my sister giggled.. she was cynically smiling at me with only one meaning on her face which was kau-tak-payah-nak-poyo-pasal-kau-memang-antu-shopping-pun-ain.. haha.. that was mean...

i had randomly chose this pic for the mood of writing... nahh.. it's actually the picture while having out without a piece of senses.. mak mesti rotan bontot aku.. mekaseh mak sebab sangat ensem.. bla... bla... bla... i got to back to my hometown today... do someone free to prepare myself?? saya sangat berbesar ati.... sumpah aku belanja kau mekdi.. haha..

.......siulan......

mane kau?

strong legs are not the only strength that u ever belong to... trust me.. no disgust on such simplest part of yourself... all are you... being creepy is rather called tak-sehat.. jadi sila terima seadanya... hmmm... i never love to see myself in readiness... nor believe that i am readying for some circumstances... i often pursue myself that all i do must resulted in fortune... sounded like kepala-hotak-juga... but it always happen when i am deadly don't know what else to do at my very end of time... kerja di saat akhir memang jadi pilihan anak melayu.. aku mula berubah sekarang ni pasal taknak tertinggal lagi... preparation never lie myself since i was 9 years old.. i used to be asked to read sort of books by my dad.. after few minutes, dad would took the books from me.. then he would started to ask anything regarding to the book.. i knew i hated to read and memorize all of 'em.. but i had made a good preparation for answering my dad's questions... that was me in a very small person that i used to be... pernah juga aku beri alasan bahawa bila kita kecil, kita masih takde banyak dosa... maka kebagusan otak untuk bersedia dan mengingati sangat hebat... owh ok.. so called crappy... but apparently sometimes the reason might be used... where as i am currently feeling refuse to continue ini anymore.. i was thinking of all these in my very whole day.. i know how fucking hard to be pretty good in memorizing those subjects.. it ain't me.. i have to see number figure... i love to assume everything numerically...

.........sultanah.........

vulnerable

don't hate me if i don't want to wear the hand watch.. i haven't feel wanting to put on some hand watch around my wrist.. bangle is the most prefer thing to be often beside me in my entire day.. don't say it isn't cool by refusing to wear a priceless hand watch... maybe the age is letting me to set in mind with the do or don't thingy... it is most similarity to when i had realize that i'm going to reduce the interest on hardcore anymore.. i know how ages able to shift myself onto the other type of listening... perhaps abngah also admitted the same.. don't pretending the interest movement.. sometimes the fake is the most preferable to people now... i said, don't hate me because of the hand watch.. i am pretty great with my very own blast... sama juga pada enset aku... don't hate me when i am still using my poor handphone.. that's it...

pollen

i had found some stupid manners by imaging a little odd of the-thing-that-we-couldn't-do-it-because-we-are-muslim... the words tend to be like hell... but i made everything with a couple of thoughts which can let me feel berbesar-hati... i had googled Lights pictures.. most people do not know herself very well since she's not sort of glamorous in hollywood.. it couldn't be 'not sort' at all.. ok here i explain... actually she's a singer in hollywood... by starting her song made from her very own desk at home, then now the voices or even songs are been recorded.. plus she's already awarded by some music award.. (i can't remember)... ok very terror.. so she must be included in the glamorous hollywood instead... baek-baek... i used to wonder why people wanna be a singer.. maybe the glamour purpose and surely sake of money.. yeah, malaysia tak mampu jadi kaya kalau jadi artis.. cukup sekadar glamour je aku rasa.. ini industri malaysia yg sangat kecil unless u are mawi.. hmmm... sometimes i prefer to love something that people really do not know it so well... when it comes to be well-known, seriously takde thrill lagi dalam kesukaan kau itu.. itu yang aku rasa.. so aku akan suka pada benda yang manusia lain tak suka dan tak tahu.. ini lebih memberansangkan... hmm.. the story here is not bout how u want to be a singer.. i just slightly explained who is Lights.. tp aku merapu cam ketapi... haha... owh ok2... the picture that has been googled is here.. the tattoo.. the fucking tattoo.. (got no idea to put fucking, mungkin lebih rase beria-ria).... haha... i love her tattoo.. if i were non-muslim girl, i will tattoo myself like this... how cool it looks.. owh ok.. again, i stated that 'if i were'... so maybe it is still within the boundary.. aku masih waras... hahaha... my flickr has been uploaded with new chantekbelaka... one of those views is here... i am currently being kurus.. aku sangat suka hati.. jadi tak perlu obses pada kekurusan lagik.. i don't think so that my chantekbelaka are so-yesterday... when u are not a photographer at all, but people will keep teasing u by saying out those harsh comment on your chantekbelaka... what would u do?? begini kata-kata aku untuk mereka... serious dude, aku bukan ahli kongsi gelap yg pandai amek gambar.. aku hanya ain.hujan.ribut yang sangat bercita-cita tinggi nak jadi oltromen dan bukannya 'sekalian' photographer... sebab sekalian itu selalunya kurang arif tetapi hanya mahu nampak cool... aku oltromen.. percayalah... mekaseh...

melihat dan lihat

terkilan... i took so long gap in believing my yesterday shirt to vent some worse out.. benar blog itu sangat mengaddictkn atau mengghairahkan... hmm.. i've done a lot of things.. by letting this 'yesterday shirt' keep quite unreasonaly, there is such some friggin cool deciding rather than keep venting tanpa sebab musabab... in my very last weeks, sometimes i was really outta mind.. u know when i embarrassed myself with some new haircut.. owh it ain't embarrassing.. it ain't bluffing.. it was just been cut... i've come out with no idea pasal rumor said, u got that misha look ain, seriously!!... owh.. this is really perceivable... cut the crap by stating perasan itu lebih berperasaan... baek... hmmm....

my abngah just done his kenduri kawen... i had storied about his akad nikah in this entry.. he also took a very long gap to make his kenduri at my family side.. this is not part of the story to write on... i've just linked with his kenduri instead... all pictures will be uploaded soon in chantekbelaka since all are influence me with an exhausted feeling.. myself really got it.. still..

hmm... aku sangat tidak stabil... every single me are so redundant.. being let go all instability with sake of "i've already settle 'em out"... here i know how further i had crawled my life without proper thinking and searching... let go itu begitu bangsat.. jadi berfikir itu lebih mendekatkan pada penyelesaian... it couldn't be completely over.. but it might be partly over... or it should be habiskan semua runsingan dengan bersendiri... all of thoughts are really fuck up...

.......kamben.......

kepala

i made a long break without updating... bahasabijak recently deleted... i got no mood on that and juz replaced with new for that... knowing to have a bahasa blog in order to admit my melayu status... nothing much that already be done at my very lately... my midterm was ok...i made a few of new songs.. sounded bagai gedik atau entah.. indeed having a very free time... peluang tu datang sekali je.. jadi aku akan hargai.. itu sahaja... kenapa gambar ini tak pasal disertakan sekali?? owh ok aksi memang begitu menjelekkan.. this is the old pic that really shows how suci i am dengan berambut hitam dan muka masa ni takde jerawat dan kurus... aduh.. ini hakikat pasal gambar ni masa umur awal 20an... owh ok.. manusia begitu obses dengan benda yang mustahil.... hmmm... baek....